Originally posted by Risingfall
reply to post by NotAnAspie
But know that in the end, it's all going to be fine. These experiences make us stronger, more resilient to future tests. So kinda see it as a
training It's how I see it. (sometimes) Sometimes it's so hard, I just lose hope. But it's part of life. To make us learn, to make us
stronger.
Well, thank you for the advice and encouragement. I want to explain something though.
There is a big problem in all of society & it is what I call trespass upon free will. In my opinion this is one of the greatest sins. We operate on a
hierarchy put into effect by trespass. We are born into this world but are born without an inherent right to be... an inherent right to live. This is
why we have to pay property tax and many other such things that keep us from simply living on the earth as a species within what is normal to our
nature. You have massive amounts of people wondering around this planet with no place they are "allowed" to be. If you look at the age old history
of mankind all problems like this trace back to trespass of free will... even back to slavery of times past. It's rooted in similar sin. Even when
one hurts another, it is trespass upon another's will.
It's no coincidence that what is wrong with my life is the fact that I cannot simply pick up and go where I want to be, nor can the person I want to
be with do the same...and although I won't get into all the details, I can guarantee you that it all boils down to personal trespass and oppression
of free will that has plagued this species since it began. You see, I know what the problem is... I know exactly what it is... but what makes it
insurmountable is the trespassing will of others cast upon me, not my weakness as an individual or my inability to solve problems. I'm actually a
great problem solver and if I was weak of mind, I wouldn't even noticed what lies within individuals that makes this world so full of sin. I would
simply accept the status quo. I do not and I consider myself as one who has come a long way in realizing their true spirit path and mission.
The puzzles that are put in front of me, are not ordinary puzzles...they are invasive, controlling, deep and uninvented interferences of my path...
deliberately and from various groups that reaches as close as possible into my immediate circles. I can do almost anything I set my mind to do... but
only if I'm allowed by my controllers and most of the time, I'm allowed to do very little...and there is a very confusing and elaborate reason for
this which I won't bother getting into but my point is that it is unwelcome. It's not simply normal life puzzles, for I am a believer that all
problems are resolvable...what is much harder to solve is the problem of the will of groups of others who insist upon interfering.
I watched one of the videos about life being just a movie, then I began watching the second one...and the speaker makes a good point that in a movie,
you don't stop the movie because a scene has gone bad... interesting, but I stopped watching the video because I just want to tell that guy that
sometimes, you can't stop someone from "throwing" the whole movie... because sometimes THAT is the most important scene.
I imagine that if Christians in this day and age were to go back 2 thousand years to the crucifixion they would be trying to stop it to prevent Jesus
from dying on the cross... but if they stop and take a look.. that is a most important scene in the movie according to their dogma. Sure, i wish it
never had to happen either but my point is that it did and people had to learn from it because Jesus was aware that people who trespass upon the
sovereign will of others had to be shown for what they truly are... and he gave his own life to build that foundation. He had that right as it was his
life to give. People who have taken it upon themselves to interfere with my life do not seem to understand how to respect the sovereignty of another.
Which sounds better to you? To live a life that is stale and full of deliberate obstacles because people feel the need to hold a person back and just
fester inside the self and be kept away from answers and one who truly understands?... or to teach those who inflict unwanted control because they
think they know what is best- a very valuable lesson?
I may be a small person, but my spirit is large and I am not weak. Stubborn, but not weak... and there is meaning behind both the things I say and the
things I do. Even things others might view as dramatic. Maybe some people just need to be reminded how real life is.
I will NEVER stop seeking what I'm looking for, and if I'm not able to do that physically, I will do it spiritually. They can attempt to control all
things that they put their hands on, but they cannot control my sovereign spirit. My pain is their pain.