Hate

I love everyone
Forgiveness built right in
My family, foes, and blood
Kindness lies within

Stupid and naive
Beaming like the sun
Just an open child
Looking to have fun

And here I stand again
After twelve years passed,
The child now long dead
Time vanished fast

Glaring at the mirror
The child's remnants gone
A monster stares back at me
Wondering what's wrong

Anger, hate, and rage
Nothing rightious fuels me
I long for love and goodness
I long for who I could be

Alas, its all beyond me
Its vanished from my soul
I let the child die
I have become cold

Cheater, liar, sadist
These things I am not
For years, I've taken pain
For years, I've watched you rot

No, I'm not a monster
No, I'm not a flaw
You are not above me
You're nothing at all

At pain, you stand and laugh
At sadness, you rejoice
This was all your doing
This was all your choice

You're muddled and corrupted
Sick, twisted, confused
Your ways, I never took
Your ways, I have refused

No, I am not perfect
I'm not always right
But you can not condemn me
You cannot make me fight

I'm done hanging around
Lingering, pitying you
No, I don't hate you
But I won't do what you do.

I've made some mistakes
I know I'm not Good.
But I am just a kid
I've done all I could.

Your son is sobbing madly
Begging not to go
You smile, laugh at him
He's suffering... So?

He grabs the stair railing
You pull him away
He screams, and cries, and pleads
Just another day...

You idiotic freak
You brought the monster back
You ruined your kid's hearts
Are you keeping track?

No, of course you're not
Its never your own fault
Its always someone else's.
Your heart's locked in a vault.

That's fine, cause I don't need you
I've got my ambition
Goodbye, I enjoy your hell
You'll wish you found redemption.

Release the hate from me
I need it no more...
Now, I have rightiousness
That I plan to restore.

Very nice Poem

Glaring at the mirror The child's remnants gone A monster stares back at me Wondering what's wrong Anger, hate, and rage Nothing rightious fuels me I long for love and goodness I long for who I could be

very confronting part on a personal level

S%F

TheGreazel.

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snf
that was good jewel...raw emotion....thats always the best
thanks for sharing
~nat

Thanks guys.

Its about my father. He brought a wickedly evil step-parent back into the picture who is abusive and clinically insane, and my autistic brother was crying and begging not to go back to his house yesterday. He was grabbing everything in sight, trying not to let my dad drag him out of the house, but he did anyway.

He was balling his eyes out, and it wasn't the first time. This happens every other Sunday, when my brother and sister return to his house. Speaking as someone who used to live with my father and his evil wife, the place is hell... that's an understatement.

It is straight-up hell to live with those two pill-popping violent psychopaths.

This woman has tried to have me falsely arrested, more than once, beat me all through my teen years, and proceeded to call me "screwed up" and "useless" whenever she got the chance. She is also an ex-prostitute, and spent all her teen years in a loony bin. Great parental figure for the kids, huh. Not to mention she's had her own kids taken away from her by the state on countless occasions.

Sorry for the rant... I thought I hated my father for putting us through this AGAIN, but this poem describes my realization that I don't actually hate him, because I had the chance to hurt him badly recently, and I chose not to.

I just pity him.

Thank you again for reading, friends

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There are no words for this.

*hug*

Good to see you writing more though.

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Well Hate........I did not, I thought it was great!. Much better to get the thoughts and anger out than keep them held within. Well done

A very clearly-written, well-stated poem. Well done.

Very strong yet so delicate, nicely done. S&F... keep it up, I really enjoyed.