Evolution of a Conspiracy Theorist
Hello to all out there currently reading and posting here on ATS. Like a lot of people, going from what we see in the introductions forum anyway, I
found ATS simply by chance while googling for something undoubtedly interesting. I’m not sure what it was back then in all honesty, I think
something UFO related, but I’ve forgotten now though so couldn't unfortunately say for sure. When I first found it I wasn’t really all that
familiar with the nature of forums either I guess. Ironically you could say It was all pretty alien to me.
Prior to the very first finding of ATS, which was also, if I remember right, when I was about 14 or so (coming up to 21 years old now), I had no prior
experience with any conspiracy theory or any alternative topic. Again, It was all alien to me at that time. It’s actually only thanks to ATS and
It’s knowledgeable members that I now know what I do, and I’m still learning everyday as well of course. That won't ever stop for any of us.
I remember in my earliest days of reading here I wasn’t only open-minded to literally everything discussed, from the crazy to the truly wacky, but I
was just completely mesmerized by it all too. It was truly fascinating to me and I’m almost ashamed to say that I believed almost all of what I
read! I think where I am now from where I initially was, that was the natural process to go through evolution-wise if you get what I mean. Firstly I
always knew that I had this existing, lingering, also unknowing interest in the alternative, I then come across a venue such as this where everything
seems magical and so informative, to then absorbing it all and feeling like a better, richer person for doing so, to now being more of a skeptical
person more hardened to the obvious stupidity and untruths. And, I feel even better for that eventual outcome too, whether it’s as a more rational
person or when it comes to my own personal research into something as I'm such a strong believer that skepticism is not only healthy, but It's also
what keep's a true and proper researcher in line and more tuned towards that end goal.
Today I’m very much so a more skeptical person than I first was when I initially discovered and subsequently started reading ATS threads, learning
about this strange, new, alternative world. And I think that’s a truly good thing too, definitely a forward progression in the evolution of a
conspiracy theorist anyway I feel. With being skeptical you don’t flat out reject, but you deflect to a degree the nonsense and obviously untrue
stuff, leaving yourself more with the stuff that genuinely does need attention and more research. At least that’s how I see things here. And I'm
only ever interested about the stuff that's potentially going to get you closer to the truth too as otherwise, it's an unnecessary waste of time.
So, as I pointed out above, when I first came here I was initially more tuned towards the truly mysterious of topics that fascinate and make great
stories, and were also potentially nothing more than that too. Much of which was related to our past and the like, such as the Dropa stones for
example. UFO’s and the paranormal played a large role in my early interests too and they’re still something I find a little fascinating today,
although they’re no longer one of my main interests apart from a few cases such as Rendlesham which I have a long thread on
Now I’m more of a politically themed conspiracy theorist and I’m fascinated by the big conspiracy cases such as the JFK assassination, which is a
personal favourite and something I can often be found discussing across the boards, the RFK case, the BPP, COINTELPRO, Cover-up’s and scandals of
any nature such as the News of the World Phone hacking scandal and Watergate for example and also mysterious deaths which range from Lee Bowers,
Dorothy Kilgallen, Karen Silkwood, Dr David Kelly or even in more recent times Gareth Williams. There's of course many more. I’ve admittedly moved
far away from my initial interests and I’m moved onto the more serious of topics, which reflects my real life personality more as well I think as
yeah, I'm quite young, but also pretty serious, especially when It comes to something I feel is potentially quite important, as all the above cases
are to me. It's why I spend so long learning about them.
It’s also for the more serious of topics which is why I chose to stick around and continually add posts and threads to ATS. Here we have a massive
amount of extremely intelligent, caring and determined souls, most of which are trying to find the truth and are also very serious about doing so too
I believe. I must be honest and say that if you, the membership, were largely different and were just like most other forum’s out there, I’d
potentially have left leave and given my time elsewhere. We're a unique bunch here and the fact that there is so many here that are also so determined
to uncover truths and dig a little deeper, well, that's just such a fantastic thing in my opinion. I love seeing, and also playing a part no matter
how small or large, in combined research on a topic and I believe member’s here largely are better than almost anywhere else on the internet when it
comes to this kind of thing. It genuinely makes me proud to have an active membership here on these forums and to be a part of this really quite
special group of individuals.
With what I've wrote above I've probably made quite clear a few thing's about myself on a personal level already, the most obvious of which, I would
hope, is that I'm passionate about the topics discussed and I care about this website and It's fine member's. It's the reason why I can sometimes
spend weeks putting together a thread. I want to learn about the topic of course and I want to further my own research and come to my own conclusions,
but I also want to share it with everyone here in the hope of spurring on a fascinating and enlightening discussion at the same time. Seriously, I
love having the opportunity to do that. I also massively appreciate other's who equally put in the same amount of time and effort as it shows you
genuinely care about what you're bringing up for discussion here and It's not just an attempt at getting stars and flags, a real pet peeve of mine I
Now, to speak to you all on a more personal level, the very reason for this thread here which is an effort for you guys to get to know us a bit more
in-depth – I make no secret about it, and I'll always challenge those who blame the younger generation for a lack of caring and posting quality here
on ATS, and I also have to say that think I’m safe in saying I’m currently one of, if not the, youngest staff member currently active as I'm, at
this moment of time, 20 years old, although soon to be hitting the big 21 in a mere few weeks time however.
Looking at thing's from a younger perspective has It's pluses and also It's negatives, and I think that's potentially a given as well. One thing I am
adamant about though, and I can assure you all I will argue till I'm blue in the face as I feel this is important and that's why I'm discussing it, is
that age is nothing but a number. Some of the best contributions I've seen on these forums have come from younger member's, 3 of which became very
good friends. Being a younger member of staff, I think anyway, has the potential for a new perspective on certain other topic's to be brought forward
as well which is always a good thing.
Even so, I certainly feel as though I've experienced a lifetime at times, whether that’s through heartache or through various experiences and
lessons learnt. Of course though I understand life never pauses and there’s many more joy-filled (Sarcasm? Yes, yes it was..) lessons to learn.
Something to look forward (Yes, more sarcasm) to I guess. I’m also still at the stage of my life where I’m struggling for some direction,
particularly career-wise and I'll be the first to admit ATS can work as a very effective distraction tool from all of that. And I do need that at
times. I am working towards something though and whether I'll make it there is something time will reveal, but I hope I can.
I’ve certainly met some wonderful people in my time here too, some of which I’ve even had the pleasure to meet and share a drink with in person,
and I know I’m going to meet even more wonderful people here as time continues to progress on-wards. Well, I really hope so anyway. For now, life is
taken as it comes living in a run down area of Doncaster, England. I’m doing the thing’s I enjoy, meeting the people who make me laugh and smile,
writing the thing’s which rack my brain and make me want to dig deeper and deeper in my personal research and I’m continually trying to progress
and live life to my personal fulfillment's – all anyone can ask of another person.
How I come across is left for others to decide, but when not online I know on the one hand I'm determined, and strong in my opinions (trust me, just
ask those around me who suffer having to listen to me) yet at the same time, when I'm unfamiliar with someone or somewhere I’m quiet, shy, reserved,
and just different really. I admit this and I hope some can relate. With ATS, and the internet as a whole I guess, is the option there to be a bit
more open with others and I’m quite thankful for that. Having the ability to be confident and assured, especially in your opinions, is something
that's needed to literally "survive" in the heat of battle on these forums It seems.
But even so, and who knows really, despite that real life reserved nature, I’d love to meet more member’s face to face and I’d love more drinks
to be shared too, for being a member here is something I’m thankful for due to the knowledge learnt and the friends made, some being the best a guy
could ever ask for in life. I do mean that too. However as I close this post I don’t know if any of you will feel closer to me on a personal level,
what drives me and why I continually post here on this online forum, I do hope so if anything at all. If not then either way, I’m glad for the
opportunity to share with you a little bit about myself, and also the opportunity to share a little bit about what was/is on my mind here as I
continually browse through the forum's looking for something to grab my attention..
edit on 24-7-2013 by Rising Against because: (no reason given)