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Originally posted by Night Star
You have already recieved some great advice in here, so I just want you to know that my heart goes out you. I wish you a beautiful life ahead of you. You are not worthless and should never be made to feel that way. You have much worth and will see that one day. Good luck in your journey ahead.
"You must be the change you wish to see in the world"
YOU have a choice to make: let the drama and BS flood your life, or let it wash over you.
I like your attitude.
One more thing: when you listed the things you're going accomplish, you forgot to include the awesome book you've been sharing with us.
Just try your best to not talk about your family in such a negative way because it creates negative energy within you and that's never good. Just remember, family is family. Maybe one day things may be sewn back together.
Anyway, she called up my Father at work and told on me, LOL!. My Dad came home and he and I got into it and almost came to blows. I told him to go # himself and I moved out. He did later on beg me to come back, but I said no, not as long as that monster is under that roof. She destroyed herself around 6 months later cause he kicked her ass out.
Hate will only consume you.
They didn't choose to be that way.
Okay, the rant was good. You needed to get it off your chest. Now, I'm going to ask you to do something. Many here will probably suggest forgiving your father, but I won't. I'm going to ask you to understand him.
It really drives me crazy when religious people say that only love will fix the world we live in.
My heart goes out to you friend. I tell you this though, It looks to me like you can do it all without them!
You have already recieved some great advice in here, so I just want you to know that my heart goes out you. I wish you a beautiful life ahead of you. You are not worthless and should never be made to feel that way. You have much worth and will see that one day. Good luck in your journey ahead.
It gets so much better once you move out on your own.
I used to hate my father to and before you give up reading just hear me out.
You're wasting your life being cranky and crabby. If you do not like the situation you are in then move along. Life is too short to be ranting all the time. concentrate on the good things life has to offer, do not get obsessed with the negative things in life.
Go your way but remove excessive negative emotions. You'll be better off for it. Basically.... screw em.
Do not let your heart fill up with hate and bitterness. It is so easy to do and it will color everything you do. I am guessing that there was a point in your life in which you loved your father, (otherwise the hurt would not be so close to the surface). Keep that and let the rest go for now. The years have a way of settling emotional debts if you let them.
This is one of those " one sided story " issues.
That said, it sounds like you're having a rough ass time no matter what the other side is. But you are far to young to decide you hate your Father. I know how hard that might be to understand, so try to keep this in mind You've made a decision to hate. No good can come from that.
He would have won.
Don't let others win that way.
One thing you need to be careful of is never repeat that negative learned behavior with future friends and if you have kids. Find positive ways to deal with things. Never give them the satisfaction that you become one like them in that way.
Originally posted by XxNightAngelusxX
YOU have a choice to make: let the drama and BS flood your life, or let it wash over you.
Thaaaaat's why I'm leaving. I haven't got the money to leave yet, and until I do, I'm stuck in the middle of the bs and hell. BUUUT, it won't be much longer.
Originally posted by NarcolepticBuddha
Originally posted by XxNightAngelusxX
YOU have a choice to make: let the drama and BS flood your life, or let it wash over you.
Thaaaaat's why I'm leaving. I haven't got the money to leave yet, and until I do, I'm stuck in the middle of the bs and hell. BUUUT, it won't be much longer.
No, it's not money that's going to accomplish this for you. It's a state of mind.
Changing your environment helps, but changing your attitude (internal environment) is better!
It's a long-term solution. Just imagine not having anything to rant about anymoreedit on 21-7-2013 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by XxNightAngelusxX
I'll always be ranting about something.
Stay safe and sacred.
Seems like the acorn didn't fall to far away from the tree, or monster is starting to seep into your soul hahaha.
You say you hate your father but it seems you only hate him because he chose another woman over you.
Well, this may sound pretty crappy but.. if you are out of highschool chances are you will find a mate soon.. and well that kinda puts your dad out in the cold.
I think you are blowing this out of proportion but teenage girls usually do.
You have nice first world problems. At least you don't have to worry about bombs falling on your house, being abused simply for being a woman or becoming a victim of civil unrest like teens do in some countries.