posted on Jul, 20 2013 @ 06:39 PM
Sorry. Its a whining thread, self indulgent, horrible, evil, I know I know.
Some of you already know, I grew up with a wicked stepmother. Like, no joke. She was extremely abusive. She was a manic-depressive bi-polar monster,
an ex-prostitute, who liked to call me crazy, psychotic, useless, oh she had countless names for me...
I've been in countless physical confrontations with her.
She put a false restraining order on me TWICE--and she ADMITTED that she only did it to get me arrested for nothing, because she knew I couldn't pay
court costs. I was still in high school both times.
She blackmailed my father, saying "If you don't want your daughter going to jail, you better come meet me somewhere and make everything
So, after the second false restraining order, she moves to Florida.
After years of hell, she's finally out of my life, right?
Now, Dad's back together with her. She moved back up to Tennessee, after less than six months.
Now, I'm not allowed to see my father anymore, because the restraining order is technically still in effect, and he told my mother he can't take me
to his new home for a visit, because there's not enough room... Lying trash. Not that I WANT to see him now.
He chose her over me.
Big shock, right? An abusive psychotic hooker who spent all her teen years in an insane asylum.
Sounds like someone worth throwing your daughter away for.
I thought I'd build some kind of relationship with him over the next year or so, because come spring next year, I'm finally moving to Austin Texas
and I'm never seeing ANY of my pathetic family again.
He was abusive too, when I was little.
And here I am, the worthless idiot who thought Hey, I think I'll look past my childhood and get close to him before I go. He's the only father
I'll ever have.
No. Forget that.
I don't need a father.
If there's one thing I've proven to him over the years, its that.
I don't need him.
And now, my little brother and sister are at his new house, WITH HER.
With this abusive monster I grew up with.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
Well, you know what?
I'm moving to Austin soon. I'll never have to see my worthless family again. Never deal with the violence, verbal abuse, physical abuse, substance
abuse, and the vicious cycle of this sin-spreading hate that infects all of my family from generation to generation.
I have a bigger goal in mind.
I'm gonna get involved with We Are Change, or whatever other *awake* organisations I can find down there. I'm going to wake everyone up, make
some REAL friends, and find some people that ARE worth my time. I am going to take part in history. I'm going to be at the Bilderberg meetings. I'm
going to be crazy, and real, and wake up the world.
I just graduated high school, its all ahead of me.
My father can rot and die for all I care.
Sorry, ATS. Feel free to chuck this in the trash, mods. I just needed to vent.
I can't see straight right now. I am losing it completely.
Its unreal that he would do this.
Its unreal that ANYONE would do this.
I want role models who CARE about integrity, honor, humanity, and love.
NOT some pill-popping loser like my father.
I hate you.