I. Love. Monster.
I've been working out every day, lost a BUNCH of inches, and I'm looking hard-core. I feel fantastic.
I LOOK fantastic.
I look almost exactly like my avatar now.
But, I think I have a problem.
I rarely eat. In fact, sitting here typing in the middle of the night, I just realized I haven't eaten today.
I'm going low-carb, and been replacing my meals with Monster.
The energy drink, Monster. Particularly the Java flavored ones.
At first, I had one a day... because usually, I'm very iffy about substances, and I never wanted to rely on any substance to get me through (ha,
Then, one day, I realized I was drinking three or four of them a day.
Don't get me wrong, everything else about this is awesome. I'm whipping into shape, planning for my future, almost ready to start adulthood. I just
But now, I'm worried.
Even now, I'm drinking a Monster. I'm about to finish it off.
I've never had an addiction before, and I never had any desire for drugs or alcohol.
But I can't start the day without a Monster.
And lately, I've been getting extremely light-headed and having strange dreams...
My family and friends are worried about my *addiction* (like they have any room to talk, all of them does one drug or another, smokes, drinks, pops
pain pills for fun, etc etc)...
I used to eat a LOT. Now, I almost never eat, and it feels WONDERFUL.
I feel like I could run a mile right now. Working out doesn't wear me out anymore.
Now, I just have a substance dependency tagging along for the ride.
I've been thinking about this a lot, and I'm not asking anyone around me for help.
My inner circle isn't entirely reliable for that sort of thing...
Although they're very good at I told you so...
So... just wondering, ATS.
WHAT is this stuff actually made of? And how should I kick the habit?
edit on 18-7-2013 by XxNightAngelusxX because: (no reason given)