reply to post by AfterInfinity
Life is not the same with God as without. I have lived in both ways I would say, and I would say that without I had no reason to even be nice to
people. I made use of hatred.
But as I started to learn and read, I gained a passion for wisdom, a passion for people, a passion for God because I realized that of Him I am part,
and that all along He had been offering me that which my soul delighted, but I rejected those delights for delights of the flesh.
And if I felt pain in my soul for who I am, as a lowly creature, I would offer this pain. God wants that faith, the faith as pure and perfect as gold
that can stand the fires and torments of sin/hell/flesh/etc, and it increases.
I remember one Saturday I went to church and I emptied my wallet in the basket(not in a showy way or anything).
It was later that day I went to the store and was pulled over by a police officer. My car ended up being unregistered and it had to get towed(oh yeah!
this also happened to be my birthday, lol)
Where would your mind be at that point?
Would you give in to despair? Would you look at God considering what you gave Him and call Him unjust?
There was a part of me that wanted to, but my faith prevailed. I examined that part of me that wanted to despair and truly learned a lesson of
God does not owe me anything, nor will I suffer any less by following God, rather I will suffer more and be refined even more.
My flesh wailed and screamed but my spirit was happy and at peace. why? it is still a mystery to me, but God and His judgement are still a mystery. I
cannot probe such a mystery and neither can you.
Nature sometimes seems harsh, but if you look at the big picture it is perfect. As below, so above.