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Originally posted by Brigidshine
reply to post by eyesontheskies
I see two potentialities here: first, you are not from here, you are from another place, possibly another dimension or planet. Read the books of Dolores Cannon, who has spoken to many patients who also claim to feel like aliens here, that they do not belong, that they do not associate with their own bodies or lives. This may be helpful.
Second, something anecdotal. A couple of years ago I was wildly ill and in the hospital on a WHOLE lot of happy dilaudid. Dilaudid is stronger than morphine and I was on it for three days. When I left the hospital I promptly proceeded into two of the most odd and dreadful days I've ever known -- I experienced a complete detachment, as if the personality I know and identify as myself had suddenly shrunk into the background, only to have this almost blackly neutral being emerge, a being who didn't care about anything, who proceeded with indifference and who didn't know how to feel or identify with anything. Of course this was withdrawal from the dilauded, but honestly it scared the hell out of me. What it also was, was a chemical reaction, and so my ultimate suggestion is that it could also be something chemical in the brain.
Last, I will validate that this state is very disconcerting, also alienating and even frightening.