reply to post by Phoenix267
This information makes me sad. The number of ways a person can retain thier honour in the traditional sense, without being called backward, is it
seems, shrinking at an alarming rate, and the world is leaving people who believe in love of a sort which I would find familiar, behind.
I have been in a complicated relationship of sorts with a lady for about four or five years. We can drink, party hard, make love for hours at a
stretch, and share glances which do not speak but HOLLER a unified desire for one anothers company. But I am denied a fullsome relationship with her.
She hates to be gifted, even on Birthdays and Christmas, she will refuse to allow me to buy her a drink, or pay for dinner, or become a larger part of
her life. She is not a one man woman. I AM a one woman man. This is not the ideal scenario for me, being an old fart well before my time, and a bit of
Because of my history, of some terrible choices of partner, leading to some pretty horrendous breakups, with my ex's either cheating on me or
proving to be utterly batcrap insane one way or another, I consider the relationship that I DO have with the lady I am currently invested in , to be
the most honest and healthy that I have ever been in.
And yet, sometimes, when I watch my lady sleep, I begin to weep quietly, because I know that she cannot return my feelings. I see her as the pinnacle
of womanhood, I respect and love her for her mind and what I have been allowed to see of her heart, her passion for life, but I cannot help being
distraught sometimes, because I know that she will never wed me, that we will not be having children together, that we will not grow old and die
together, despite the yearning of my every atom for it to be so.
And now, now I have to consider the very real possibility, that I am some sort of throwback, my attitudes not modern enough, my needs old fashioned
and outmoded, and not shared by anyone else on Earth. I am now trying to comprehend the possibility, that the future holds no love for me, not that I
would recognise or benifit from. All of a sudden I feel very cold.