Originally posted by BDBinc
It is Ok to forget to eat for a couple of days no harm. I have forgotten for long periods the same power that powers the universe keeps you alive
there is no need to worry so much.
You understand intellectually the concept of your own well being includes your feeling and thinking as intimately connected to that of others.
Can I ask if emotional trauma from your childhood could still be a factor?
The memory of the fear of the abuse to me is very loud. Thoughts and feelings can make one sick and accident prone.
You life is valuable full stop if any experience (of abuse)has made you feel and think other than this fact then you should eliminate those thoughts
and feelings forever. Your life is valuable and it is not because you are a mother.
The body has its own survival instincts there is no need to worry about it . We are all here on earth for as long as we are here, no one can change
that and its best to enjoy the gift of life (learn and accept) without thinking and worrying about the body's survival.
For a day stop being fearful & worrying about what will happen- be in the now.
Maybe it is at that age that it is rational to let go completely of ego and no longer be worried about the survival of the body that has its own
safe guards which you should listen to but in listening you should not be focused on fear for the body's survival .
Work through any of the past trauma that remains that challenges your immense value.
I know meditation can still those worrisome thoughts and the more you connect with that inner peace the better it is.
Sending you much love.
Hm. I'll think what you've said, my first reaction is that I don't relate. I don't feel afraid about what will happen, I don't feel afraid at all.
On the contrary, I have a sort of indifference to the idea of death or survival. I don't feel afraid of taking off my clothes at the end of the day
I do not believe value is inherent in anything- I perceive it is relative. My physical manifestation has value to some others, therefore it can be
said to have value- even to me because I attach value to them.
My survival instincts that came with this body are fully active - there is no problem there! Only that they get triggered by more than experiences
this body has. For example- if I watch someone else get hurt , then my body has the same hormonal reactions as if I just had that injury. My automatic
instincts do not necessarily make a difference between "I" and "other", the way my intellect is able to do.
This causes many problems for the body- in that example, we have the problem of toxic build ups from surges in hormones- a state of almost constant
stress can make the body very sick.
I may not be concerned about keeping a physical manifestation at any price, but while I am, there are many reasons to keep it healthy- again, this
goes back to others relations to me. Those who are close to me feel empathically what I feel. If I am sick and suffering, they too, suffer.
Contrary to what you are claiming (that I should not be concerned about my survival or well being) I am constantly getting opposing messages from
others- that I should try to care for my body, that I shouldn't let others hurt me, or use me as their venting receiver, or in whatever ways will
bring them comfort or release, if it causes my body pain.
Since I feel their release, or comfort, at the same time I might feel the pain or discomfort, it really doesn't matter to ME. But to those who love
me and observe this, they DO make a difference between me and the other, and they only pick up on the discomfort part in such situations!
I don't know if I explained that effectively... can you grasp what I mean?
YOU may think I should not make this effort to take care of my body while here, but that might be because you are not a person in close relation to
me- it will not matter to you.
But I will consider your feedback anyway, and perhaps I will relate more later in time. Sometimes things need to sit to connect.
23-6-2013 by Bluesma because: (no reason given)