reply to post by liquidsmoke206
Indeed. I find it very sad, despite what I said in my post above, that this is the way my life has been thus far. Im happier than I have ever been,
and yet, it is very depressing to know that I have no future with this woman, because she desires no future with ANYONE.
It is also deeply confusing. I mean, sure, the sex is mind blowing, soul shatteringly good to be honest. But because she doesnt want a boyfriend or a
partner in the traditional sense, even though every fibre of my being demands it of me, I cannot go to her house when she is ill and look after her.
Hell, she even protests when I walk her home after going to the bar, despite the fact that by this point in an evenings events, she is usually far to
drunk to make it alone.
Yesterday night is a case in point. She and I went to two bars, both had live music events going on, many drinks were drunk. Come the end of the
night, she made off toward home, and I walked with her. She got lost after five minutes, at which point I took the reigns so to speak, and guided her
in the correct direction. So staggered was she, that a cop car pulled up, and asked us if we were ok, to which I replied " Dont worry fellas, its not
the first time I have walked the lady home, and its not going to be the last."
Every twenty or so steps, she would do that whole ineffectual two handed slap to the chest routine, which usually has the effect of her rebounding
away, having made no alteration to my position what so ever, thereby placing the majority of the motive force onto her. Its not helpful in the least,
because it is at this point that she is at most risk of toppling off her heels, and taking a header over someones garden wall, which prompts me to
catch her from falling, often resulting in me damned near breaking my back every time we venture out together.
Its only times like this, where she really has very little choice in the matter, where I can actually do something for her that has nothing to do
with the physical side of our relationship. Maybe I am a freak or something, but not being allowed to cook her a meal, or be a part of her life in any
other way than the part which feeds her sex drive ... feels a little empty sometimes.
edit on 6-6-2013 by TrueBrit because: Reason? God knows.