posted on May, 30 2013 @ 05:51 PM
I agree OP. I've been there. I know how profound and personal an experience it was, and how it was absolutely 100% real and reality, and that *I* was
sure I was onto something so massive that it was mind blowing.
Something happened during these few weeks that dropped me like a ton of bricks and stoppped me, thank christ, in my tracks to reconsider things.
Around the same time as you I'd expect, 2004-2005.
I went to get help after that and I've been completely sane and 100% a functioning normal squirrel ever since. Oo
But that's the thing. I do see it the way you do. And it, if nothing else, it's given me a chance to see how absolutely god damned real the things I
was thinking were at the time and consider that when I read and hear others with outlandish stories.
I was astonished to 'discover' the things I was discovering at the time, and it all made perfect sense. It was like something had awakened in me to
reveal the invisible lines between the seemingly random dots. It was all so clear.
Haha when I think back, I can still see the reasoning and logic I used to satisfy my innate need for logical explanations for things. I actually had
an intricate scenario developed, by itself, in my mind, that was as if it was how things had been and everyone, myself included, had just been too
stuck in the mundane plodding of typical life to have ever realised it.
But when I was forced to stop and think how absolutely mucked up I had started thinking, it scared the # out of me, and I knew it was something
So when I see someone else, now, doing things that make no sense, yet justifying it to themselves by leaping from one random thing to another, I
can't help but remember how real my delusions were at the time, and how it may be that the person I'm watching, is slowly getting more and more
convinced by their own deluded thinking. But they have no one there to anchor them. No one to make them think "Hang on, there was no one in the drive
way at 3am, as I was standing there watching the house across the street pipe sinister evil subliminal instructions into the neighbouring houses."...
It scares me to think how powerful the mind can be.
I absolutely agree that enlightenment is one step towards that, not in a bad way, it doesn't hurt until it's something you cannot control or when it
They say there is a fine line between genius and insanity... I believe that.