Disclaimer: I'm a theist but not of the Abrahamic faiths. I have minor biblical scholar and scriptural skills. Also I am not a scientific/legal or
medical expert in any field. Beware of my Contagious Memes! & watch out that you don't get cut on my Occams razor.All of this is my personal
conjecture and should not be considered the absolute or most definitive state of things as they really are. Use this information at your own risk! I
accept no liability if your ideology comes crashing down around you with accompanying consequences!
Explanation: I was invited to this thread by u2u from MatrixProphet (a poster I respect and hold in high esteem) who recently discovered I had
disclosed that I was Ex(disfellowed)-Jehovah's Witness in another JW subject based thread.
I have wrestled with myself on whether I should fully disclose my history and experience concerning in an aid to deny any ignorance and I have for
some reason that still eludes me, feel very uncomfortable and reluctant but these are just subsets of FEAR and I hate FEAR and MUST eliminate it . So
I will feel my FEAR but not let it control me. I will fully disclose but with a few caveats.
1) I will not respond to any reply that tries to debunk my post as I'm pretty sure 99.999% you weren't there!!!
2) Please be fully aware that this post is coming from a POV that is looking back to a point in time in my life over 15yrs+ ago and during those
15yrs+ I have lived quite a life and have subsequently changed many if not all the POV's that I held back then.
3) I was diagnosed as suffering extremely acute onset of teenage violently paranoid schizophrenic psychopath and sociopath a at age 13yrs old after I
chased my Mum around the house with a butchers knife and a meat cleaver with the full intent of killing, butchering and cooking?(hadn't made my mind
up and raw meat has this highly attractive smell to me and so does blood (strangely I can't stand the sight of other peoples blood directly in my
face as it and the smell makes me dry wretch as my moral conscience fights my bodies desire to cannibalize the bleeding "Victim", for internal self
. I was quickly medicated on stelazine and after 3mnts confinement in a mental asylum was released as "CURED" back into the big wide
world. During this time I was assessed as having an IQ of 153 at age 13 (I recently tested myself in an Australia wide TV based IQ test and both my
two brothers and I all ranked at above 120 but below 130 (I was highest at 128IQ Not mensa but not nesscient either). Unfortunately my EQ was so low
as to be both sociopathical and psychopathical in nature (
I still fully hold to the belief my parents have murdered me by giving birth to me
when I am neither immortal or invulnerable! CRAZY HUH! and then I go and extend that to all parents...Then I start feeling I want revenge and as I
don't subscribe in any way to state sanctioned revenge I start plotting to do it all by my little old self....this leds and has led to my commitment
many times to address these issues!) BUT this has all been currently resolved in past 6yrs due to self commitment to the asylum, great Dr's and
1x30min/fhtnght mental therapy sessions with my case mngr and 1x1hr/3mnth visit with my Psychiatrist and 2xdaily medication regime of both
antiepileptics (EPILIM) and anti Psychotics (Risperdal) at relatively moderate
to high doses. I'm considered as Unemployable for more than 5hrs/dayx1/wk
at very menial jobs and I'm not allowed to own ANY weapon of any kind (pocket knives included...but I do carry keys on a very long chain... can
anybody say kusari-fundo
and I'm still fighting for my right to carry a walking stick as per Australian law [it can be 1-2inches thick and up
to 6ft tall !!!]) and I am not allowed to pilot any motorized vhcl except a postie bike and then I need special permission.
This caveat can be
considered to taint my entire post. Please refer to my Disclaimer. But always I shall endevour to Deny Ignorance and this is my primary goal when
posting on ATS/BTS.
4) For privacy and security reasons I will not be using anyones name but will refer to everybody (except myself) in code. I will use the code to
describe my status at various stages.
The code is as follows:-
C=member of the Congregation
P=Pioneer (all are full time Active Witnesses)
O=External Oversight (always a high ranking Elder from the corporate side of the JW organization)
AW=Active Witness (any code without this means the Witness is performing at less than 1hr/1wk with regards to promoting the JW beliefs). All AW are
both Baptized and at a minimum a C
j=junior Elder, Ministerial Servant, Pioneer or Missionary, Theocratic expert or Active Witness.
F=Female (after and E means Wife of the Elder and she will also have his numerical code)
000 to 999=random numerical designation of person except a single special code designation for a member of the "Bride of Christ" i.e. the 144000=144
So an Elder may be coded as EMAWPT789 and his wife as EFAWPjT789.
I for example started out as a UBCjM and left as SjMAWPjT and was well on my way to become a SMAWPT and then my goal was to reach OEMAWPTMss.
Note these codes are not actually used by the JW's themselves but are fully a construct of my own. Don't be thinking that because I reached the
level of Sj that I was a Congregational Policeman and these codes I'm "revealing" were used to somehow ID people and form files on them as this is
completely untrue but that doesn't mean that there isn't a fantastically extreme amount of gossip that goes on you basically can hide very little
from the Elders or the Servants attention.
So here goes....
My demographic back then (Jan 01 1987 CE)was:
culture: White Anglo Convict decent Australian teenage male.
Education: Government High school yr8 unemployed student
Familial: Outcast! (but still living at home)
I was a bigot, misogynist and a Thug and was well aware I was on the road to a quick unpleasant death (Damn my inbuilt genius) so what to do eh? huh?
hmmmm? I know I'll get meself GOD and myself Religious and then maybe then my Mum might just forgive me....So the next time a fellow student a yr
ahead of me and a JW (code CMAWTj001) who was born into the following witnessed to me I took him up on his dare to have some bible study sessions.
Continued next post below.