reply to post by ButterCookie
I understand a measure of what it is you are going through. My father has no soul, and yet he used to preach. Although I havent given up on faith, I
do not do "church" and I do not speak to him anymore. He disowned my sister and I, after my mother divorced him. However, he never showed any
interest in our lives and happiness, or lack there of, in all our lives. He would see us feeling down, and either ignore it, or leave the building so
as not to have to deal with whatever was ailing us. Such indifference would cause arguements between my mother and father, which he would passively
pass off as being down to HER irritable nature.
We excised him from our lives well before he wrote my sister and I out of his will, and I for one say good riddance. So thoroughly am I pleased that
I havent seen the man for nine years, that when he vanished from his second wifes home a few years back, the police came to ask me where he might
have been. I can only assume that his second wife knew what I had told him the last time I spoke to him, which roughly translates as "The next time I
see you, I will kill you.", and had passed that information to the police. Unfortunately he turned up several days later after a stay at his
mother(my grandmother)'s place, who, incidentally, was such a bi.... such a stunning example of good character, that her interaction with my mother,
during the period where she was pregnant with my sister, induced my mothers teats to run dry, so that she was incapable of breast feeding my sister.
Grandma and Grandpa on fathers side of the family are ALSO on my "no platform" list, because the particular plauge that they spread around
themselves, literally makes me want to grasp some sharp objects,end thier lives with them, and make modern art out of thier sundered, stinking
corpses. Spreading negativity for that particular bunch of people, is as simple as waking up in the morning, and continuing to breathe air that ought
to be reserved for decent, fairminded folk.
Where your situation is concerned, I wouldnt loose a single moments sleep over cutting these people out of your life. Life is hard enough without
constant badgering, naysaying, whispers, seeds of doubt planted under every foundation of every thought you can summon to mind. I know the damage that
is being done to you by these people, and my heart goes out to you. You cannot allow this to go on, despite the fact that you would, rightly, wish
things to be different than they are. Alas, this is the real world, and things out here are rarely as we would wish them. With that in mind, you have
to make the choice that will benifit you the most, and free you to spread your wings, take flight and get what you want from your personal life, and
Knowing that these things are impossible with such weight pulling you down as you have been carrying on behalf of your family, is the first step. Its
a doozy, but it is so worth it.
And remember... Love, wether it is between relatives or partners, is rooted in support. It is not just a word to bandy about because its the "done
thing" or because "society demands it". If you arent being supported, encouraged, protected and cherished, then you arent being loved. If you arent
being loved by your relatives, then they arent worth your time.
I know you might not be as interested in faith as you might have been (if you hadnt been exposed to negativity and political brainwashing associated
with that element of life by your family). But you are in my thoughts, and my prayers. I dont know you from Adam, but I will tell you what, as much as
a perfect stranger can, I love you, and I wish you the very best, and all the success you clearly deserve. Dont let the buggers get you down.
Many hugs and good luck!