posted on May, 21 2013 @ 07:43 PM
I am almost 27 myself, and I feel I have lived quite a lot in that short amount of time. But ever since I left the USAF, about 5 or so years ago, I
have changed considerably. I can relate to not wanting to go to parties, or be around "party type" people. That never really seemed all that fun to
me. I don't like it when people mess with me either, sort of like a personal space thing I guess. It was not this bad in high school, and I sort of
just went with what everyone else did, so I don't suppose I seemed abnormal in any way. I only let a few people actually get to know me relatively
well, and even then not completely.
I always felt I could talk to girls moreso than guys, but if it was a girl I actually liked, of course I never attempted to be thoroughly myself. It
was the girls that I was not interested in, the ones I actually talked to relatively openly, who would of course like me. I suppose it has to do with
the fact that when you are not interested in someone, you are generally more confident, without thinking about it or trying to be.
I have enjoyed solitude my whole life, but it has gotten stronger these past 5 years or so. So I can definitely relate to certain aspects of what you
saying. Do I however think you are normal? What is normal? Normal is relative I suppose, and I cannot believe that we should judge one another based
on what the majority do. But I can assure you there are people just like you. I do have another thought though. Maybe, for all your maturity, you are
not mature when it comes to certain things, and you are insecure in certain areas. Those two things can have similar affects to what you describe. But
part of the problem is that identifying and then admitting these setbacks to yourself is quite difficult.
The subconscious wants to help us grow spiritually and emotionally, while the conscious mind attempts to avoid pain, which means not acknowledging
problems that are present. When we ignore these problems for too long, we start getting psychosomatic illnesses, bad dreams, etc. I personally believe
that many illnesses are psychosomatic. They are the direct result of conflicts between different parts of consciousness, or the brain, soul,