posted on May, 18 2013 @ 09:23 PM
I want to preface this by saying I'm a little off tonight and this is kind of a ramble. Better work lies ahead, I am just trying to get the ball
So, here I am again.
This is actually my second intro to the wonderful ATS community. About 2 years ago I finally joined and was all set to get typing when my issues
started giving me trouble. You see, I am what they call bipolar, type 1. On top of that, in the last couple of years my mood swings from manic to
depressed have gotten more severe. Right after I joined ATS I started seeing my former talk therapist and I was very up front and honest with her
about my hobbies and interests. Long story short, I was basically instructed to stay away from these types of sites because they feed my symptoms with
the content presented.
Now I'm not crazy, and I don't appreciate someone acting like my fellow ATS members are crazy either. We are probably more informed than most
to be honest. However, it was a rough time and I did recognize that my tendency to be depressed might be being slightly magnified by focusing on the
sort of topics I would tend to read about. So I stayed away and tried to pretend the world was sunshine and rainbows, and guess what happened.
Things only got worse.
It's not ATS, or youtube, or Coast to Coast that depresses me. It's an imbalance. If anything, ATS and such makes me happy and feel like I'm
part of something meaningful. When I was ignoring the truth for about a year and a half, I was drinking again, I voted even though I didn't believe
in it, I was not being who I wanted to be.
So about 4 or 5 months ago I started lurking again. It felt great. I quit drinking, started reading more again, got a new tattoo to commemorate
quitting alcohol, got into a better treatment program, and now here I am. But this time I have I goal. I have read a little about mental illness on
here, but not a lot. Well, I live it and can tell you some things. I am bipolar, OCD, and have social anxiety out the whazoo. I am actually starting a
new treatment program on Monday and would love to type and discuss how it's going. I also would like to invite anyone with mental illness issues of
their own to come forward and discuss them with me. If you're already here on ATS, then we know we have something in common.
Anyhow, it's great to be active on here, finally. I look forward to discovering the mysteries of the universe with all of you.
Oh yeah, on a quick side note, is there anyway to boycott these Bill Hicks is Alex Jones threads as a community. I know I'm asking a lot, but
the people that are pushing this, Caliberhitter, and a few others are really hateful. I'm a big Bill Hicks fan and I posted a comment on one of their
videos and was just attacked from all sides. So I checked out some of their other videos and trust me, this is not the kind of stuff anyone on here
would want to be associated with. Just planting seeds, letting you know.