posted on May, 16 2013 @ 01:44 PM
Psyclobin mushrooms and the internet. And obliviously 9/11. So obvious a toddler could figure it out.
But what really did it for me was my accepting of the fact that the only thing I know, is that I know nothing. Accepting your own ignorance is
something almost everyone should do, but unfortunately self esteem and the ego get's in the way.
This is also why I can never really hold a belief system. Every time I read more and more into these conspiracies it's like peeling back layers of an
onion, it's like going down an endless rabbit hole only to find out that you have no control over what the future holds for you, and you sit here,
reading these conspiracies, trying to find the truth. I wonder if anyone else feels like me (hopefully not) I'm 18 yearsold and I feel like a broken
40 year old man. Really really sad, I wish I never found the internet or the computer, it's hijacked my life completely, I'm starting to feel more
numb and less human.
The thing that sucks about reading conspiracies is the deeper you go, you start to build a shell around yourself. You don't go out really much
anymore. Your world is your computer. And a constant numbness plagues you with the occasional wiff of regret and remorse. Now I know this isn't
everyone, but I noticed this within my self, I'm not really growing or evolving as a person, I'm just hiding behind a computer screen pretending
that I know anything writing on a "conspiracy" forum that has strange ties to the DoD and the NSA.