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Originally posted by tetra50
This is the most emotive, honest, and touching OP I have read in a very long time. And I needed very much right now to hear someone of a like mind.....
Thank you, from my heart.... I wish so very much I could say something to give you hope to go on, to have faith, but I am all out of that these days, Nevertheless, you are NOT ALONE. Some of us have lived and feel exactly what you do.....
Tetra50edit on 15-5-2013 by tetra50 because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by Spawn2001
Hello, I am one of the good ones. I am a nice guy and deep down I know I am a little kid, innocent. I don't do anything really bad or to hurt another. Just relax don't get caught up trying to answer questions no one knows or unsolvable today. I know someone said enjoy the little things, how about ice cream or soda? Maybe they could stop your morbid moods. Just get lost in the pleasure of life. Life is a garden, dig it. Try to enjoy life instead of critique ing it. Let certain things go. I used to get angry at this site for little kid aetheists going on parade, that lack experience or question themselves as wrong. There are a bunch of questions t's we will never know, they don't have to ruin your life unless you let them.
I have been through quite a distressing and self-abusive period in my life.
It could very well be a sense of absolution from my past and the mistakes I made that has lead me to this crucial point in my existence.
I do want to recognize that love resides within us all. I do want to recognize that fear is a prison and I am close to escaping that prison. Beauty is everywhere all we need to do is open our eyes so to speak. I will never give up that is one thing I can promise myself. It's not an option.
strangers from all walks of life can be awesome to each other.
Gives a body hope!
I'm sure it's great to own a huge piece of property with all sorts of materials to distract me from the deeper and more ethereal/esoteric/metaphysical side of life. Ive listened to all the theories of materialism, the hypothesis that we are merely programmed biological organisms that exist for a brief moment in time as the result of a monumental explosion billions of years prior. I understand that this existence might be it, that some are unfortunate whilst others are so privileged that they seem to overlook the rest.
I have even embraced my flaws and made peace with my mistakes and believe me I have made many mistakes, so much so that it has lead me so far down the rabbit hole so to speak that mere conversations with others sometimes end in dismay.
Why? because I tend to say things like it is, I tend to unintentionally burst peoples bubbles so to speak. You see I have this irritating yet addictive condition for seeing the world for what it is and not what it wants to be. I see past all the superficial chivalry and games the masses seem to consume so vigorously.
I know it is the little things that should be enjoyed but as of late I have realized the way things are going the little things might not exist for much longer. I hate to say this but maybe I should just admit that I hate human beings for always being so predictable, for always taking the easy way out, for always ignoring the most important things.
That first bite of that sweet apple, that sweet taste of pleasure that has lead us all astray in the pursuit of pleasure at all cost, who cares about the man sitting in the corner with his cardboard sign. He had his chance to swindle he just wasn't that good at it. One thing I know is if there is a God he/she/it has left us a long time ago, I know I would of.
Don't get me wrong, behind all this is a morbidity, there lies a person capable of showing compassion,love,and care. I just don't know where to project it towards any longer. Is it because we have lost touch with the very thing that has provided us with the environment to exist, probably. All I know is I need some wise words, not from scripture, not from some deity speaking through you. Just from you .....
Originally posted by InhaleExhale
reply to post by FreeThinkerbychoice
I love you too.
Thank you, today I felt a spark happiness which what feels like I haven't experienced for a number of years now, receiving your love has made that spark into a flame that warms the heart not burns the soul.
I actually look forward to tomorrow after a very long time.
Originally posted by Marlborough Red
What a great little film.
So simple yet so true.
Nice to be able to take a step back and consider things from a different perspective.
Originally posted by denybedoomed
reply to post by InhaleExhale
I keep revisiting this thread because its such an awesome example of how strangers from all walks of life can be awesome to each other. I've only been a member of this site for a week, I'm really impressed by you beautiful people.
Gives a body hope!
Originally posted by FreeThinkerbychoice
Originally posted by tetra50
This is the most emotive, honest, and touching OP I have read in a very long time. And I needed very much right now to hear someone of a like mind.....
Thank you, from my heart.... I wish so very much I could say something to give you hope to go on, to have faith, but I am all out of that these days, Nevertheless, you are NOT ALONE. Some of us have lived and feel exactly what you do.....
Tetra50edit on 15-5-2013 by tetra50 because: (no reason given)
Thank you for reaching out, how ironic that the times when one feels alone are the times when more feel the same, a bit of a paradox and on that note I am reaching out to you through this keyboard with an unconditional, non judgmental, no hidden agenda HUG
Who cares if we never meet in person, all that is important is that universal recognition that there are people out there that care. I wish you strength for your personal struggles and a good dose of Love for your life and it's magnificent purpose in its own unique way.