posted on May, 15 2013 @ 04:13 PM
I have the same feelings. Plenty of me's. One me when I wake up, one that does not want to go to sleep, 1 me during the day and so on.
I accepted this as constant self-forgot. We loose our consciousness, we forget about ourselves.
And literally, 99,999..% people are in state of constant unawareness
, they do not have consciousness at all. Me for example, I cant even
remember when was the last time i become awake. I guess maybe days or even weeks passed. Now Im aware, but few minutes later my thoughts will fly to
something, and maybe days and weeks again will pass until I again remember this state of mind.
To be aware is not easy, and it is even hard to explain what it means because people think they are aware all the time. They cant even grasp this
I know that conflict you and me have is good in some ways. They tell us that there IS more, and that we need to work, work hard to change ourselves.
Being aware of problem is first step in trying to solve it. If conflict lasts for to long time, it just means that we do not invest enough effort to
change, and to grow consciousness and awareness.
What is the goal? It is to be in state of constant awareness or to be in complete self control. We will have "self" problems until we master self
control. And that is something you work on for your whole life.
edit on 15-5-2013 by poweref because: you can read from Castaneda or Gurdjieff
about this type of thoughts