posted on May, 2 2013 @ 12:13 AM
I have no where else to post this, so I apologize for hijacking this introduction thread. OP I hope you can forgive me, and mods please do not delete
this. This could be important. This could be the ramblings of a confused person. All i know is my life has grown severely surreal and strange. I have
the urge to get this all out, regardless of how it may make me look. I personally cannot stand posts like the one I am about to write when other
people do them so I assume I will have generally the same effect on you all. This isn't coming from some egotistical, narcissistic need for
attention, I can assure you of that. The words that follow are the result of too many weird things happening in my life and the confusion that has
When I was a child, probably about 5 or so, I stood in a grocery store playing a candy crane type of game to win candy for quarters. The backdrop of
this game was a mirror. As I played, I saw two older people, one male, one female, both unkempt and haggard standing about 20 feet behind me, staring
into my eyes through the mirror. They began to hiss and growl at me. I was terrified. My mother saw and grabbed my hand , pulling me away.
Growing up, I could feel a change in the pitch of the environment around me whenever somebody would show up or leave. I could be isolated and just
know somebody left or just showed up based on the way the room felt to me.
As I got older, weirder things would happen. I've always been extremely sensitive and able to easily feel what another person was feeling. My mother
always seemed to know what I was thinking, as if I was thinking too loudly.
I was leaving a store one day in my early twenties and a young child looked up at me and said "Hi" and then he said my name. I don't want to type
my name here, but the child, maybe 5 or 6, knew my name and said it to me after saying hello. I said hi back, but I was a little confused .The
child's mother grabbed his hand and quickly rushed him away, as if he had just done something wrong.
I had to pick up a cake for my job so I went to the grocery store. My job gave me money specifically for the cake so it's not like I was in need of
cash. While standing in line, a woman I don't know came up to me and demanded to pay for the cake. I said no thank you, but she put a ten dollar bill
in my hand and ran off.
When I first met one of my best friends, the first thing he said to me was "Sometimes I feel like I'm just a character in somebody else's dream,
and I feel like I have to say that to you." He said he never said that to anyone else.
I've taken magic mushrooms several times. One time while tripping, a friend kept asking me who I was, over and over and over again. The word "God"
popped into my had and I said it outloud. My friend shook his . in agreement.
Another time on mushrooms, me and two friends spent three hours having telepathic conversations that we later verified and confirmed while sober.
Another time on mushrooms, I ate far too many. I sat alone in the dark in my bedroom and had an out of body experience. I saw myself sitting on my
bed, while I floated in this ocean of love and possibility. I realized I was pure awareness. I saw how whatever I put my attention on, I am, and so is
my reality. I saw how I change the world by changing my state of being. While out of body, I also saw the future, including this moment right now
(i'm getting insane flashback deja vu sh-t to that night which was 7 or 8 years ago, while i write this). I told one person about this experience.
They called me crazy. I never told anybody else.
I got a random email from a stranger that said that I am the only point of consciousness, and this is my dream, and everything and everyone else is a
reflection of my chosen state of being.
I've been able to just know what every girlfriend I've ever had was thinking. It creeps them out.
Another friend of mine got black out drunk and started telling me that I need to wake up because the world needs me. I uncomfortably sat quiet and
didn't respond as I didn't know what to think.
I like a girl I work with. I mentally tried to tell her this. I also told her mentally about the times I took mushrooms to explain how I could
mentally communicate. The next day at work she began asking me about mushrooms and said she knows I take them. She heard me in her mind.
Another conspiracy site has a meme that often details aspects of my life. This is gross but true. One day I took a sh-t, and literally 5 minutes later
somebody made a meme post saying that I just took a sh-t.
One of my favorite bands came out with a new album, and one song on it has the lyric "You are the one they call Jesus Christ."
People always tell me I look super familiar but they can't place it.
I don't want to be anything that I'm not. I just feel crazy the more this sh-t happens. It's gotten so intense lately that I don't know what to do
or think about it. I just want to be me.
That's my story.
And my last post