I am heartbroken. I feel like such a wuss. In 26 days my only child, my pride and joy will be graduating from high school and in 4 months from now she
will be leaving for college. I just want to cry all of the time.
She is a good kid. She is stubborn. She is smart. She is independent. She is loving. She is spoiled rotten. She is my entire heart and soul.
Why am I so sad? I cannot imagine my house without her. She is rarely home now, usually only long enough to shower and sleep, and sometimes eat. She
works after school, has friends and a boyfriend, so seriously I see her a few minutes before bed each day.
BUT she comes home. She sleeps here
(when she is not with her friends) and brings me her laundry.
She is in and out and it is a crazy comfortable normal for us. BUT soon, she wont
come home. She will be going to college parties and ballgames and living her life.
I want a do-over. I want my baby back. I want Saturday morning snuggle time while we watch cartoons. I want bath time where I fill the tub with
bubbles and she plays until the water gets cold. I want fish sticks and mac and cheese every night for dinner because that is all she would eat. I
want trips to the zoo. I want nightly story time. I want to play Barbies and dollhouse and candyland. I want to do all of the things I took for
granted and did not appreciate while I had them.
This is the hardest part of being a mom. You spend 18 years giving your baby wings and one day they fly away.
I am proud of her for making the choice to go to a great college and live in the dorms. I am proud of her for wanting to be an asset to society and
not a drain on it. I am proud of her for being such a blasted good kid.
I am just a mushy, gushy, mess. I do not know how I will make it through her graduation without totally embarrassing her by crying the whole time.
ANyone been through this? I hear so many people say , I can't wait for my kid to leave the house...
I am thinking I am abnormal.
edit on 29-4-2013 by k21968 because: (no reason given)