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posted on Apr, 28 2013 @ 11:21 PM
I hope things change for the better for you. The past 6 years have just gotten worse and worse for me. Been through hell and still there. I have insomnia too. Can't seem to find a decent depression pill and am really suffering through things here. You're not alone. HUGS!

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 12:15 AM
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, "Desiderata"


posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 03:04 AM
Smyleegrl, I'm a mom with an autistic son. Better yet, I'm autistic myself. Both of us are high functional and I don't know what degree of autism your son has but let me tell you, my son and I don't think that there is anything wrong with either of us. We're quite happy being the way we are. We're quiet, very contemplative, can get transfixed by the play of light off of leaves, and we care a whole heck of a lot for people, frequently to the extent that we want to beat our own heads in because we just don't understand why people do what they do when it can cause so much grief. We don't find autism to be a fault in us. We find it to be the thing that makes us who we are and what we love about ourselves. We have several close friends who are also autistic and they feel pretty much the same way. Autism isn't a nasty disease. It's just a way of seeing differently. It can be pretty frustrating at times even in our household as my son's brand of autism differs in some ways from my own. I enjoy playing music loud from time to time whereas he'll come into my room demanding that I turn it down (lol--talk about a role reversal, right?). He's intensely rigid with his vocabulary and I'm way more flexible. Both of us suck at slang. That's our biggest problem with autism....slang.

What I'm trying to say is this--please, please, please don't count your child's autism as a negative. Yes, it can be tricky at times in helping a kid with autism adapt but there are benefits to being autistic. Heck, I get people comparing me to a fairy because I walk on my tippy toes all the time. Bonus!
So cheer up on that count, ok? Odds are, you didn't do anything wrong. Milder forms of autism went undiagnosed for a long time. Took me witnessing my 6'2" kind of big guy father tippy toe walking across the house one day to realize that we probably took after him. He, of course, doesn't look like a fairy while doing it....

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 05:40 AM
hang in there

here is some virtual flowers for you:

I can't offer an advice, things that have worked for me may not work for you (chinese herbs for eg) so I will leave out any suggestions.

although my Son had ASD and I took him to see an Environmental and Nutritional Specialist... he was put on a diet and also OT = was really full on for about 2 years (he was allergic to gluten and caesin) thx to the EN Spec and Chinese herbalist who detoxed him (after results of blood panel) he can eat anything and is great now. It affected his emotional behavior also, extremely inteligent but frustrated due to the ASD.

here is a hug and hope you get better soon.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 09:04 AM

Originally posted by beezzer
reply to post by smyleegrl

a quote from Mother Teresa.

"If you can't feed 100 people, then just feed 1."

I mean no disrespect, MT, but with an attitude like that, it's a good thing you stayed in India as a missionary and never became an American teacher. The organization you belong to might label you a saint, but, in my book, smyleegrl is a saint.

smyleegrl is expected to not only feed the 99 you can't, but if she leaves any unfed she's fired and labeled incompetent or lazy. Maybe, MT, if your order can't feed them all, the Pope should disband it and replace you with someone else with experience with feeding billions, McDonald's.

On the serious side, google "sleep disruptors" to find common reasons why people find it harder nowadays to get a good night's sleep.

reply to post by Thurisaz

Awww, those flowers are pretty.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 09:30 AM
reply to post by desert

The point is, Smyleegrl may be feeling overwhelmed. The point of Mother Teresa's quote was to focus on doing the good that you could, not doing everything that you see.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 10:01 AM
If you add food containing molybdenum to your diet, well cooked brocolli and colliflower, cocoa wheats, sunflower seeds, etc... it will reduce the copper levels in the body. This will reduce the MAO enzymes. Adding aged or fermented foods to the diet such as real aged meats, organic yogurt, and some cheeses in moderation it will make you feel more content. This includes chemistry that is similar to the meds you take so slowly add them to the diet as you reduce your meds. Make sure to eat a little food containing nicotinic acids so your blood pressure doesn't rise. Try not to eat foods that have added free glutamates though, the body, along with it's gut microorganisms can convert what it needs. Too much glutamates with either mao A or mao B inhibitors will give a person a migraine.

Good luck with getting off the meds. There are real conditions where people can not properly process the glutamates properly but these cases are rare, it is diet that is usually the cause. It would be good to also eat some asparagus occasionally, it has a mellowing effect similar to vallium without the bad side effects of drugs. Asparagus does not effect thinking as much as meds do. About three spears twice a week is just about right unless you really want to enjoy life.

I study this a lot trying to find ways to control my Temporal lobe epilepsy. Only you can correctly figure how much of these things you need, everyone is different and everyone's desired personality is different.

A mineral supplement helps when it contains Molybdenum. Molybdenum, whether from food or supplementation, helps the blood carry oxygen. This helps with thinking but moderation should be observed. If copper levels get to low, than it can cause problems also which takes weeks to months to rebuild these enzymes. Molybdenum also helps to stop problems from using copper sulfate on veggies and fruits used to keep fungus from forming to have negative effects on the mind. It is now included in many multivitamin/multimineral pills. It can also help to stop some asthma like symptoms caused by the body not being able to convert sulfite back to sulfate. Ask your doctor about what I am saying, he/she may know some of this.

A good apple cinnamon roll can have positive effects on mood also, and not a diet one, if eaten occasionally. The chemistry of that is very complex, needing malaic acid, fermentation, cinnamon, and sugar to work. That is a whole page of information itself

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posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 12:04 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl

Give your self time, the only thing we really have well till we die. Of course getting of something like Seroquel is going to be tough! I tried it once, together with my other meds, and it me go bananas. Tried as in given to me by the doctor.

Thing is furthermore, as you get older you realize that life is a lot of repetitions, nothing more or less. And the magical things one expected when young are just fantasies. Nothing wrong with fantasies, really. But as an adult there are the pressures of paying the rent etc etc.

Give your self a break

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posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 12:23 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl

I hear ya. I deal with this crap on a daily basis. I am a computer technician and sometimes I feel like I lose my passion for work. When you start to find the truth you start to find how unimportant it is to be part of their system. If you are still on medication I would try to get off of it slowly. You can do a google search for a chart on how to ween yourself off of the drug. Also realize that most antidepressant drugs stop serotonin from being produced so if you try to quit cold turkey then you are going to feel like dodoo. It is not your fault if your baby has autism. What I would do though is adjust your diet. Eliminate fast food and start eating fresh not frozen vegetables. My wife and I like to make smoothies which help out a lot. I would start exercising, find something that you enjoy. Hiking, bike riding, jogging, anything heart healthy. This will help with the stress. I hope everything works out for you and we will be praying for you and this country. God Bless!

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 12:52 PM
Could part of the problem be your outlook on life? ATS and other such sites can really open ones mind. From what I have seen myself teachers are generally not open-minded, and follow similar paths which conform to conventional systems and beliefs. They are a cog in a machine which helps breed tax payers and submissive workers. Education doesn't encourage critical and free thinking. The subjects covered here will never make it to the classroom. To know these things must make it especially hard to go into a classroom and follow a curriculum which is uninspiring.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 01:11 PM

Originally posted by Ginga
Could part of the problem be your outlook on life? ATS and other such sites can really open ones mind. From what I have seen myself teachers are generally not open-minded, and follow similar paths which conform to conventional systems and beliefs. They are a cog in a machine which helps breed tax payers and submissive workers. Education doesn't encourage critical and free thinking. The subjects covered here will never make it to the classroom. To know these things must make it especially hard to go into a classroom and follow a curriculum which is uninspiring.

Lol, I use ATS at school all the time. And my critical thinking skills are highly honed, thank you.

Just to correct your stereotype, most of the teachers I know are very open minded people. We aren't goose-stepping in the hallways, and we actually do try and teach our kids critical thinking skills.

But star for the suggestion. Maybe the negativity on ATS is affecting me....

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 02:51 PM
I understand you totally. Let your body readjust to its normal phsiological state. After all the years of psychotropics you have to give your brain time to rewire itself.

You don't need medication. The medications you've taken honestly no one has it really locked down the exact mechanism they work. Further, they are given out like candy.

You made the right choice to get off all psychotropics. These just alter the normal link between mind/soul and body and trick your brain.

Just hang in and let the chemicals wash out, focus on your child. Further, they give Austism diagnoses out like candy as well. If you kid was born in 1920 they'd say he's a normal variant i bet.

Regarding taking the SSRI in the first month of pregnancy, it is possible the drug had some effect on his brain and this time point is crucial in development but I don't beleive you can't overcome it with parenting.

Best wishes.

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posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 03:13 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl

Almost two years. The doc gave it to me because I have horrible insomnia. I lay in bed and my mind races, races, races.

Gave you an anti-psychotic for insomnia? Why not some Ambien or something? You may want to ask him about something more specific to sleep aids.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 03:28 PM
reply to post by Gazrok

If I may interject, as a life-long insomniac, I would advice caution to Ambien.

(excuse the use of tongue, I'm watching Game of Thrones again)

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 03:43 PM
I will never take ambien again. When I took it, I ate in my sleep. No joke! My husband told me I was doing it but it wasn't until he videotaped it that I believed him.

I'm guessing I was prescribed the Seroquel for the depression and anxiety along with the insomnia. But I want off. Stepped down to 200mg today. Ten days at this dose, then 100mg, then 50mg, then I'm free!

Going to try meditation for the insomnia. I think the insomnia is a symptom of my anxiety, so if I can calm myself that should help.

At least that's the theory.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 03:50 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl

If I were you, I wouldn't take any drugs at all. Anti-depressants are not good for you. Doctors will jump at the chance to shove them down your throat. Meditation is a good thing I would say stop popping pills and do things that are more natural and you will start feeling alot better.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 04:51 PM
Hi Smyleegrl,

I wish you good luck.... There's something about being told that you have to have drugs all your life to be "normal", that just doesn't sit right with me. (I don't have any med requirements myself... but if I did).

I had a roommate once who had bipolar disorder. He hated being on lithium all the time. One fine day (I used to work as a security guard at a mental hospital), I was walking by this hospital and spotted him running around. He was obviously off of his meds. I encouraged him to follow me to the hospital and got him to emergency, where they helped him out - he was really on a high, but wasn't aware of it - and didn't want me to turn him in for help. Anyone could tell from his behaviour... at least a third party could, if they weren't equally high.

I would encourage people who have some sort of requirement for help, to assess, while you are in good spirits, who you think your friends who ocassionally see you are - and they don't have to necesarily be doctors to assess you.... But, if you were in trouble, people whose advice you would trust, in case you exhibit something that requires attention.

I feel that it is harder to take advice from others, when you suspect their "agenda". Whereas some people help provide a feeling that they will not take undue advantage of you, when they dispense advice. Doctors included.

I sincerely hope that your efforts to get rid of the meds works out... for my severe irritable bowels - I've personally used meditation very successfully. But now that I know it, there isn't anything anyone on the planet could tell me to get me to dispense with it. I'd also advise people to find others who know meditation to sit together with... some meditants are capable of making an amazing difference for people.

I've seen your efforts at making others feel good on this site, and I am glad to see people are sharing their views with you to help you out. I believe you deserve the help. Your mileage will vary, but hopefully you will find a way. In our community (I'm malayalee) those who wish to encourage sometimes say quite honestly "You have to find a way". From what I have seen, I believe you will.
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posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 05:58 PM
Just a thought but have you had a thorough medical checkup lately?

I recently got one after years of not going near doctors, part of which was a blood test. I'd been going to work and doing everything everyone does but man was it getting me down and feeling hard... I thought it was depression and anxiety. (and to some extent there was an element of depression. the anxiety i realise now had nothing to do with it)

Anyhow they called me at 11pm that night and told me to go directly to an emergency department because I had been functioning on only one third the regular amount of red blood cells. Everyone couldn't believe I was able to get out of bed at all, let alone do a physical-labour job - but apparently it had happened so gradually I'd just adapted to it by my heart rate increasing. (resting pulse of 90...) - they said if I wasn't young and healthy I would've probably had a heart attack.

Long story short they gave me a massive blood transfusion... 2 days later I felt like I was literally floating out of the hospital because of how much energy I had all of a sudden.. life not only became easy again, but mentally I felt more awake, alert, things felt more enjoyable, music sounded better...

So don't rule out a medical reason for feeling so drained, it could actually be something incredibly simple to fix

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 06:01 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl
Smile,,things are getting much better all over this big happy planet! Hey,,I know what you are feeling, and being a teacher in these trying times must be exausting. I praise your position in education and have to urge you not to give up. All those students who appreciate your hard work need you! I feel the same dread and hoplessness all the time,,whether i'm working or not. Seems lately no matter how hard you try to do the right thing,,you allways end up with crap on your face. Life seems to be getting increasingly difficult with all the politics, corruption, lies and
so on. SOOO hard to get ahead of the game, or even to break even and enjoy life, but, as an americans we should never give up. I hope things get better, not for just you,,,,but ALL of us. We need a break in the chaos that has seemed to be the new norm.

posted on Apr, 29 2013 @ 07:01 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl

Alot of what you are feeling is the residuals of pharmaceuticals.. they dampen the senses and erode the dendrites so much that it takes a lot of effort to function at normal levels even after being off them for years.

In general when we get run down or lack the energy for life it's best to force yourself to do something you wouldn't normally do or even seek out the advice or even just companionship of someone you normally wouldn't. I have learned that it is through others that we truly find our path in life and when we do that it also takes the energy and the attention off of our own plight.

Meditation is great for curing insomnia but even better is yoga.. and sometimes it is much easier for beginners to do regularly because it is directed movement and breathing. I have been meditating off an on for about 15 years and it's still by far the hardest of all exercises.
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