posted on Apr, 21 2013 @ 04:28 PM
Once every two weeks I practice a meditative method where I go very deep for an extended period of time. I was doing this yesterday and sometimes in
this practice I am rewarded with a really fulfilling and satisfying period of pure bliss.
But not yesterday. Not at all. God was going to deny me my bliss that day and not reveal herself to me. She was holding herself back, and I was to
find out exactly why. Today she had a lesson to impart on me. A message that I urgently needed to hear. I had strayed from the path and she was
going to explain in great detail to me exactly where I went wrong , and exactly what I needed to do to get back on track. In other words, I was in
store for one of these mind-blowing "moments of clarity" like you read about. A tongue lashing and one-on-one tutoring session from God herself.
You can call this God, the Self, the Source, or whatever you like best, but from here on the term will just be God.
Please don't expect this message to be some hidden truth or secret teaching, or you will be sorely disappointed. These moments of clarity are almost
never very earth shattering to read for the person who didn't receive them directly. They are usually meant mostly for the person receiving them and
are not new information, but rather they come from a person finally fully understanding and integrating a time honored truth that they have usually
been exposed to many times.
I liken it to a person who has been in psychological therapy for 30 years. Finally they make a huge breakthrough and are cured of the issue that has
been plaguing them for so long. If you ask the person "What was your breakthrough?" They might say something like "I realized that my parent's
divorce wasn't my fault." To the person not receiving the breakthrough, this is not news, and does not sound very profound. You may have been
telling the patient that very thing for years. It's only that the patient himself has just now been able to finally fully understand and fully
integrate this knowledge into their being. And then they were liberated by it.
So if you are at a certain level spiritually, the message I am about to reveal won't be news to you. You may have integrated this a long time ago,
and your response to this info will be "Well, duh! Of course - I already knew that!" or even "That's not what God told me!" But for me this was
something I either never fully understood before, or had maybe just started to forget, and therefore needed a harsh and forceful reminder.
God decided it was time to show me exactly what was hampering my spiritual progress, and how exactly to go about fixing it.
I was shown that in order for me to be at a higher spiritual level my mind needed to be at peace, and that all my irrelevant and distracting brain
chatter needed to be silenced. And what exactly was causing all these mental disturbances and keeping me from being at peace? Well, my attachments
I was shown 3 of my biggest attachment obstacles, and one of them was broken down in great detail and I was shown both the massive costs to me of
keeping this attachment, and also the benefits I will attain by giving it up.
The 3 attachments I was shown, of which the first two are really just parts of my ego that need to be given up, are as follows...
1) Attachment to being thought of as wise and experienced at my job. I have fourteen years of experience doing what I do and its very important to
me to be thought of as an "expert" because of all this accumulated experience. (An ego trip)
2) Attachment to being thought of as spiritually advanced. I have read many of the important spiritual books over the years, and have attained many
valuable insights through spiritual practice. It is important to me to be recognized as learned in this area. (Another ego trip)
3) Attachment to my home business and its success. I am creating a company, and half my brain at any one time is buzzing around with ideas about the
business, fears of its failure, and relentless thoughts about what I need to do in the future to make it a success. (A classic attachment to worldly
concerns. This is tying my brain up in knots and giving me no peace at all)
It's very clear now that all of the disturbances in my mind and ceaseless brain chatter these attachments produce are the main obstacle to
progressing to the next level of my spiritual growth. So why am I keeping these attachments? What is the benefit to me of keeping them, and what are
the costs to me of maintaining them? And most important, what do I gain by giving them up?
I was shown the first attachment in great detail and given the answers to the above questions. The benefit to me of maintaining an image of myself as
an "expert" based on my long experience is the comforting notion it gives me that I am "always right." I have so much experience that the ideas
and opinions I have MUST be the correct ones right? No matter what amount of book learning, or intelligence, or problem solving ability another person
has, it doesn't matter. I have been doing this for fourteen years darn it, and I am right, period.
This is a nice image of myself to maintain, and it gives me a certain level of comfort and certainty in my daily life. The only problem is that this
is a false image I have created for myself, and it comes at a great cost to maintain.
To maintain this image of myself, I can never be wrong. I have to defend my ideas vociferously and state them with absolute, unwavering authority. I
can never ever allow myself to admit I was wrong, or else the whole image collapses. This of course produces untold amounts of disturbances to my
mind, and endless brain chatter about how to defend my ideas against any threats, no matter how logical the opposing view may be. I MUST be right, no
matter the amount of mental gymnastics I must perform, and questionable arguments I must come up with in order to prove this is so.
The solution is clear to me. If I want a peaceful mind, then the attachment to this image of myself has got to go. I have to renounce it and go back
to the "beginner's mind." Yes my experience can inform my position, but every problem is unique, and its OK to take in new information, and
accept others' opinions, and accept that sometimes my idea may not be the best one. My mind is free now that I no longer have an image to
The same lesson can be applied to most all attachments and ego trips. Let them go and you'll find peace. My third attachment, the attachment to the
success of my business endeavor, can also be given up. I need to think about and perform my work on the project of course, but I must do it in a
spirit of detachment to the result. I can't worry about the success or failure of my enterprise. I just need to stay in the present moment, and do
what I can, and to heck with the rest. Now my attachment is gone and my mind is at peace.
Well, that's it. This info helped me a great deal, but then again, it was MY moment of clarity, and it was made specifically for me. It was just my
psyche finally integrating some things I probably should have integrated long ago. However it is my hope that this message could be helpful for some
of you who haven't yet integrated the same insights. For those who already have, maybe this is a reminder that attachments and ego trips can
sometimes creep in whenever you let your guard down, so stay vigilant.