posted on Apr, 16 2013 @ 03:58 PM
Wow, OP. where to start?
First of all....don't feel guilty because of what you are feeling. It sounds like you are in a truly toxic environment, and you need to get out of
it. I realize money is tight, but keep saving. Make moving out your priority.
Next....find a way to give back to others. You'll be amazed at how much better you will feel when you do this. Volunteer at a homeless shelter, soup
kitchen, or even read books to kids at your local elementary school. Offer to teach adults how to read (I can help you with this) or just volunteer at
a nursing home. Doing this type of work makes you feel better about your situation and yourself.
Third...do you have a pet? A cat or dog, something that can give you unconditional love and affection could do wonders for you. Just something to
You also need an outlet for your feelings. If you keep them bottled up inside, eventually you'll explode. Like a pressure cooker, you have to vent
steam somehow. Exercise, a hobby, or even writing your thoughts (like this rant) can make a tremendous difference in how you feel. Choose something
you enjoy doing, and let that help you vent.
You've got a tough row ahead of you. Just know that we are here should you ever need us, and I mean that. Send me a private message anytime you need
Hugs to you,