Hi Tetra... below, is one of my posts on the UFO sight I was part of when young, that was on the thread we were on (page 10). If everything started
there?! I am not sure. But when I think back, my way of thinking has always been a little different from the way others thought and too many crazy
(and I have to say wonderful) things have happened to me as well.
Just to make clear: the story below was fact not fiction. And yes, if I did not take care of myself from the time I heard the metallic voice telling
me "I should kill myself" in the first place (around December 2012), it would've driven me crazy or I would've done exactly what "it" wanted rather
than what "I" wanted (the story will tell what I am talking about). Right there, I denied it was me saying that... and believe me, all this MKultra,
military, area 51, constellations battle, reptile, etc, etc, etc, were all part of a movie - not my reality at all.
How much personal effort was into this? Tons.
My whole lifestyle has changed ever since, and improved. I eat better, I meditate, I connect, I move consciously, I get informed, I also relax and
enjoy the pleasures of life, but above all, I think energy instead of the separation of body, mind, ego, you, I and the whole Cosmos.
(By the way, it seems to me that every time I am too certain about something, in the next minute, something else will prove me wrong... so reality,
from my perspective, is definitely infinite).
Anyway, that was when I "woke up" and nothing else made much sense afterwards... I believed I had married someone I met out of nowhere and we were in
love and all that; nowadays, I think he was a perp. Or sometimes I leave my house, I think there was someone here messing with my things. Or, my
thoughts... just the thought of having someone reading all of them!! OMG! Things were a bit like this and it became a lot like that... understand the
shift on my reality? I needed to be as healthy as possible otherwise I would get crazy!
To look back and see that my "world" was that fragile and that fake, was a harsh experience.
But what choices do I have?
I still have to live, survive, learn, learn how to love... and so much more!
Some even says, we still have to manage our other life's karma's...
And because I know I am part of something I have no clue what or why (and yet, it is so obvious to me), I am very concerned on who to trust, which
made my world a difficult place to live, but worth trying.
This is how I described it (I made a few improvements and dealt with a few mistakes from the first one):
FYI: English is not my first language and I will be trying to make a point thinking in a different language...
so please, be patient.
“The two hardest tests on the spiritual road are the patience to wait for the right moment and the courage not to be disappointed with what we
encounter.” (Paulo Coelho)
Everything is so very subtle, it's ridiculous. It happens out of nowhere, from people (i.e.: family member) that you never imagined could be possible.
The more integrity one has, the better they get firm to their thoughts and actions; otherwise, "ether" comes to format a person and bring the right
words, the "wrong" ones as well and so much synchronicity that is hard to even put words in.
It's hard to even say "when" it has started or "what" goes on to prove us right - or wrong to anyone (police, family, doctor, counselor, wife,
husband, etc).
Anyway, my critical thinking has always been huge in me and I was always contesting life... as it was.
By the age of 9 (myself, my father -- a xeriff so to speak -- his friend and my brother) saw this flying saucer at night, flying reallllly slow and
right above where we lived. My father saw it first and yelled for us to run out to see "them". Because, there was not one, only....
A big one in the middle, and 3 smaller on each side, adding 7 of them.
IT HAPPENED. I know what I saw and I remember as it was yesterday. The whole thing changed my perspective on life in many levels...and the sky was not
the limit (at that time, early 80's, there were a lot of saucers visiting that region).
After this, I starting doubting "faith"... about everything. On the other hand, I remember vividly to tell my friends about it (until my twenties -
after that I stopped) and not being believed.
Huge contrast, right?
Life went on and so much had happened (but I was "sleeping" to know what exactly was going on), until one night,years later... I noticed this voice
that came from "nowhere" suggesting that I should kill myself, on exactly these words. I was like... ohoh... "what exactly happened here"!!!
I stopped everything I was doing at the time and started studying it on Google and my peregrination on this subject started.
I got more lucid than ever since it was a life change and I needed to be clear in my mind, which I do without medication (only teas). The changes
were... great and horrible, at the same time --- a bad one is that I practically trust no one at this time. I have no idea what has happened there and
if there was a connection to anything I had gone through in my life. No idea at all. Sometimes I read there is a link between other constellations and
us here, but who can?? (scientists can only prove civilizations until a determined period of time - and what is behind there? Echo? Monkeys?).
Nowadays, after having gone through enough "magic" to know I know nothing - no where to judge no one crazy nor to not believe in everyone's experience
being a TI - what I believe is that someone, "they", what ever WE ARE DEALING here with, want to shut up us as well to shut up our min'd potential,
shut up our spirit. Or trying to make us stronger than ever.
I am not sure yet.
Organically speaking: my chest has gotten this constant red color in the past 2 years, that looks like I have an on going allergy and I feel crazy
palpitations in my heart as well as crazy clicks at the base of my neck that hurt when I move. However, I also have this vibrant flow of energy that
makes me go on and feel more concentrated and perceptive than ever before. Can anyone understand the duality? Because I don't.
What do we go through, by whom and what waits for us in the future?!
Lately, I believe that "God" is the only one who knows...
Peace.
PS: Another thing I don't understand considering this thing being very subtle... How come there are people that get paid for being jerks???
One time, I read that "perps" are everywhere and they will become the perps of the perps. By then, probably, hell will be here...
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