reply to post by LoneGunMan
Me, too. I cannot even begin to express in words to you just how very much I hate what we are living in has become. Perhaps it is time for me to
take an ATS/computer break. Don't bother with much news, msm or otherwise, anymore, either. It all seems to say the same thing to me, regardless of
purported topic or talking points, it's all saying, and equalling the same thing. A repetitive algebraic equation infinitely getting nowhere, but
more numbers and/or representative letters......
someone told me today to continue to have faith. I've been pretty good at this aspect in my life in challenging, dark night of the soul type of
times, usually...... If I cannot find a way to feel hope for myself, just personally, I can usually find something visual, or something from
observing others and how they react with one another, that will give me hope, small as it might be. Kindness between strangers on the street,
something like that, and at the moment, it will be just the little thing I need, down deep, to keep going.
Sorry, don't mean to go on, and soak you in my tears. Not a good day.
But news like the OP's.....it just doesn't surprise, nor speak to me in any way anymore. And this is what I find most alarming, on a personal
level. It seems the only way to tolerate an environment like this and somehow survive it, is apathy, to just not care anymore. Because I cannot see
any way out of it for anyone. I wish I could. I used to believe that if we live to fight it another day, someone in the future will benefit, surely,
for there will be change....
But as I said about the repetitive algebraic equation, it feels
to me that we are in this never ending loop, and i can no longer reach that
feeling of hope that there is a way out of it, or a different spiral possible, happening elsewhere or on a different plane, or just that it was my own
paranoic delusions or depression, and it wasn't really like this for everyone......
But I don't feel like that anymore, nor is it what I see. I see everyone suffering, except those who really
don't give a crap anymore at all, if they ever did, and live by that total sociopathic, narcissistic mantra everyday, invested solely in their own
pursuit of pleasure, and it usually involves removing that possibility from someone else, or even causing them pain.....those people I observe these
days seem to be doing just fine, for this environment is exactly suited to them. For the rest of us, I don't know.
I hope. That is all I can say. I try to continue to have some kind of hope.