I honestly don't know how to explain it. I want to, but it's like a universal language to me. You can only understand it, not explain it. Almost as if
it was impossible to explain because others are meant to understand it for themselves because we all have a path that we must take in order to
transend onto whatever the next stage may be. We are all here for a reason, and that's to find our way towards God again. Everything in this life,
every human ineraction all has the Ego involved - this is why people think they are more popular than what they really are yet there are people who've
already found the path towards God for they are humble, or manipulative if they choose not to beleieve in God. The Ego is the veil between Humans and
God a wise man once said. Life is a game and we are here to learn to find the right way. I believe in God, so I try to stay as humble as I possibly
can and expect nothing. This is why Jesus Christ is the way, the light, the answer. He's the door, but just because one believes in him doesn't mean
they are saved they must understand it. and live by what he teaches when they come to know the true meaning of 'Ego is the greatest illusion of all'
to the best of their ability because after all, none of us are perfect we all have flaws otherwise we wouldn't be here. Life is truly an illusion yet
that's what makes it so beautiful.
A wise man once said, if you see life at 50 the same way you do at 20, you've wasted 30 years of your life. One of the Greatest boxers Ali said that.
One of the favourite quotes because it's true.
I wish I could explain it better, but Ego is something that young people cannot understand easily because some people rely on it because they can't
accept that their illusion of a life is all a lie because one needs Ego to be happy with themselves, but one can also be happy without Ego. That's
what enlightenment is all about. It's actually quite simple really but even I do not know the words to use in order to make people believe but I'm
afraid that it's not my place to tell people because it's something everybody must learn for themselves otherwise I would be interfering with Gods
plans with us all and that's not something I wish to do.
This is why relationships are hard for me at this point in my life. I don't just want any woman, I want a woman who realize these things as I do. I
don't want a woman who wants a guy because of his social status, or because he has a car, or because he has monmey or how I look - Those are all part
of the Egos deadliest sins - pride, greed, lust. Although, I must be physically attracted to them yes - that's a must for everybody otherwise they
will just continue to lust after other women and be confronted with temptation everyday only simply because they are not attracted to the one they are
with. People want to be happy and to be happy they want to be with someone they actually find attractive.
I want a woman where I can sit in a room, and when she doesn't have anything to say without expecting me to carry on a pointless conversations, she
can sit there with me, hold my hand, cuddle, or make love all without saying a word simply because silence is truly golden. If one feels like they
have to constantly talk all the time it's all because their ego is making them think they have to talk in order to feel better about themselves in
life. Everybody in this world is one and the same and it's the ego that seperates that away from us all. This is why people talk about others behind
their back when they have nothing better to say - they'll make up stories, rumors and so on and forth to maintain their social status in life to make
people believe that they know what they are talking about when in reality they're the real idiot. The same idiots are the circle jerks who let's these
people talk the way without any moral obligation to stick up for others.
The ego is one of the best concepts that I like to talk about. Not only because I understand it but because it explains a lot about human behavior and
why people do the things they do and act the way they do. Hell, I understand serial killers, well certian kinds anyways. The anti social ones who feel
as if there is a part of them missing and that part of them that is missing is their 'ego' something they have yet to understand so they feel jealous,
lust towards other people that they can't seem to get otherwise because of their anti social personality that they are willing to kill them, rape
them, and god knows what else. Then there are those who are mentally crazy, the kind who eat people; cannibals and those I'll never understand.
It's like me telling you you're incredibly sexy. You want to believe it, because your ego wants to believe it. You'll want to believe that I think
your sexy, why do you think women are so easily manipulated by men? Woman are the emotional ones and to be emotional is to have an ego. I ask myself
why are women more emotional than men? Is it because she was the first to take a bite out of the apple? This makes for women to have more of a hard
time seeing through the illusion of ego - it begs the question as to why more psychopaths are men than women? Or is that just a stereotype? Who really
I don't know..
But yeah, I'll let it sink in, if you can even figure it out. I humbly take pride in my intelligece that I earned as a result of my hearing loss and
other experiments. If it wasn't for my hearing loss, I would still be up to my neck in my Ego and living an illusion, partying, having friends,
pretending to be 'cool' and what not like any other young adult does. But now, I'm an introvert. It's all a phase that people are naturally meant to
overcome otherwise if they don't, bye bye you go recardinated onto Earth again unless you commited murder or any other harsh crimes against Gods
people. This is why people must ask for forgiveness for their sins and mean it with all their heart. I've sinned, I still do and my greatest sin is
lust. I love sex, I love women, if given the chance I would sleep with them but if I could pick just ONE woman of my choice, I would never cheat or
think of another woman because I would be happy with what I got. Unfortuntely, a lot of woman don't want because I'm unemployed, introverted and most
importantly? Because I have a hearingaid stuck in my ear and that - understanding from their perspective assuming they don't understand ego - it HURTS
their ego and that's why they don't think twice about me - and that's why I'm introverted and rather not have friends because I don't trust anybody.
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