We are taught that God loves us all. We are taught that when we pray in the name if His Son, the Lord Jesus Christ, who gave His Life that we will be forgiven or all our sins and, at death, will sit in the right hand of God in Heaven.

(I wonder? Did anyone one ever see a picture of God with this thumb up on that hand up the "butt" on which we sit?)

I was beaten by my dad, taunted by my family, this ,that, the next thing, in a car crash at 30, disabled, with a 5 year old daughter,who is now 49, and who has no use for me, dismissed from her life by my Narcissitic son-in-law, lost them all including 3 grandchildren and 40 years after that accident was run down again and hurt even worse, and am just now on the verge of being able to settle a claim for about $400,000.00.

It turned out that her marriage was wrong, as she divorced and hooked up with ... another....a woman, so is lesbian (might have thought I woud object?..so pulled away. 2009, again, after the intial rejection, of 1991.

Won't talk openly with me, her mother, nor do my 3 grandchildren...(21, 24 26) as though I have been " 'slandered' and left on my own".

Can anyone express whether your feelings would be more against a disabled mother at your age 5, or a doubly disabled mother at your age, 44, or would you feel that your mother would be against your being a lesbian (gay?) that you learned in the year 2009 at the age of 45?? These are loose terms because I am guessing.

How can a daughter so well loved by her mother, turn against her so badly as to never talk to her again, without an explanation for 14 years?... or in the long run, since she met her now ex-husband at age 19, THIRTY yerars ago.

I developed sich at sadness about my life that I can no longer cry, and I think of them all as strangers. Is that weird?

Facts always help me.

I used to be convinced aliens were real. Fact is, there would be proof if that were the case.

Look into your soul

Meditation helps me

The truth is there just needs looking for

Cody

Awwww, I'm so sorry you are going through such dificulties. I would love my Mom no matter what. Hugs!

Originally posted by canadiansenior70
We are taught that God loves us all. We are taught that when we pray in the name if His Son, the Lord Jesus Christ, who gave His Life that we will be forgiven or all our sins and, at death, will sit in the right hand of God in Heaven.

(I wonder? Did anyone one ever see a picture of God with this thumb up on that hand up the "butt" on which we sit?)

I was beaten by my dad, taunted by my family, this ,that, the next thing, in a car crash at 30, disabled, with a 5 year old daughter,who is now 49, and who has no use for me, dismissed from her life by my Narcissitic son-in-law, lost them all including 3 grandchildren and 40 years after that accident was run down again and hurt even worse, and am just now on the verge of being able to settle a claim for about $400,000.00.

It turned out that her marriage was wrong, as she divorced and hooked up with ... another....a woman, so is lesbian (might have thought I woud object?..so pulled away. 2009, again, after the intial rejection, of 1991.

Won't talk openly with me, her mother, nor do my 3 grandchildren...(21, 24 26) as though I have been " 'slandered' and left on my own".

Can anyone express whether your feelings would be more against a disabled mother at your age 5, or a doubly disabled mother at your age, 44, or would you feel that your mother would be against your being a lesbian (gay?) that you learned in the year 2009 at the age of 45?? These are loose terms because I am guessing.

How can a daughter so well loved by her mother, turn against her so badly as to never talk to her again, without an explanation for 14 years?... or in the long run, since she met her now ex-husband at age 19, THIRTY yerars ago.

I developed sich at sadness about my life that I can no longer cry, and I think of them all as strangers. Is that weird?

edit on 19-3-2013 by canadiansenior70 because: ( I forget in which Forum I posted this!)

If one is to find truth and become strong and build his/her temple up he must first suffer and go through a time of great trials, you have taken the first step in the glorious truth of love and posted for all to see. Your wells have dried because you are done crying and now it's time for you to choose whether you would see past her wrongs and embrace the daughter that you always had. The older people tend to hold on to tradition and customs and forget to grow spiritually, becoming blind with pride as Satan did.

Luke 14:27 - And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.

1 Peter 4:13 – But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed

If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. – John 15:18-19 (NIV)

Rest your heart with love that has no boundaries, look not at ones actions but look past the flesh and the memories will far out way the bad.

Thanks all,

What seems odd to me is that her answers never sound truthful, but if it's what she said then how can I prove it wrong.

My first thought is 'abandonment' on my part, because I was not actively her mother for ONE YEAR, as I recuperated in hospital and rehabilitation.
Then upon setting up a new home after that, I was in a wheelchair and did things differently.
I cannot remember how "in tune" a 6 year old would be with her surroundings-- yet our lives were busy with my taking her to classes in baton, gym, swimming, church groups, string orchestra concerts and parent teacher nights....all of which she was in favour.

My second thought was who she married. She was 19 and he was 30 when they met and about 3 months later, home one day from University, announced that they would be married the following June. AS nicely as I could I tried to discuss that she hadn't known him long, and she had told me things that made we 'wonder' about him.... so suggested that if were really LOVE, it would last but please let me put her through University first. She said, 'I love him and we're getting married whether you like it or not, and if you don't like it then don't bother coming."...the first she had ever used that tone with me! (I was in fear of losing her so was rather 'walked on', and didn't like it but tried to keep the peace and paid for her wedding.) (1984) Later I knew she wasn't happy. It was obvious and she told me he owed $250,000.00, when they married, hadn't told her. (He was already borrowing from me.) He kept her in solitude and poverty, had 3 kids then kicked me off his property or he'd "put a bullet through my head", (1991)

Then she left him, (1994) but never talked to me about it, but I never said, "I told you so". I never would. Then she put herself through University, part-time while working part- time and had one, not successful, affair.

In 2010 she wrote to say she is lesbian, so my choices as to what her problems really were are there. Maybe there were others, like losing her son to his father @ 14., but he is 26 now, all appears well ...except now the youngest son (20) doesn't appear on Facebook with her.

I suspect that I will never know the real truth of WHY? and even if I guessed it, she would never admit.....but she sure loved me when she was little and we were joined at the hip. She had things she wanted, but also had her chores and an allowance to. She was never into drugs, drinking, or smoking, was an A+ student graduating High School with Honours! Does that sound like a troubled child?

"Look to the man", I say, considering where she is today!

Thanks all for trying!