Love and light to you all.
This was my experience.
I was home alone, skipping round the house tidying up being my happy self. When I just happened to start thinking about the different things that make
up me such as the mathematical side of me, creative side, logical, psychological until I hit emotional. At this point I couldn't stop the train of
thought which had been set in motion and i began to panic (at this point I was in the kitchen, which is where it had to take place). I was looking
through to the living room imagining my mum walking through the door, when that didn't happen I thought about my nan (spirit side) and again nothing.
My fear started to grow exponentially, my heart beat escalated to frightening rates, thats the point where someone/thing started giving me
instructions on how to calm myself down (breathing, heart rate, mind set), and explained that I had (I apologise for the description) solved the
meaning to life which meant I now had to go through a process.
I was made to look at a specific point in the dining room (kitchen is joined to the dining room and front/living room, doors are open throughout it)
and shown that everything around me was "fake", not real, my own creation, which was funny but quickly became dis interesting. My brain/ego/mind had a
lot of questions, and the one explaining it all was extremely patient, kind, understanding and let me realise things somewhat on my own which a little
guidance.(at this point I was calm, excited, astonished, amazed and awed, but calm) My questions were answered in a way that made them seem irrelevant
once they had been answered and were quickly moved out of the way until I was ready for the emotions to follow.
Laughter/joy/happiness can come in many shapes or forms, for me during this, it was as simple as walkinginto the washing machine door (continually
open throughout) and was told it happened on purpose and, again, I found it funny. This time though I laughed, then laughed at laughing, hit the
washing machine door again, then literally fell on the floor In hysterics, as it had once again been done purposefully. This was quickly dismissed,
though I was allowed to laugh at it when it popped in my head again, which it did, a few times.
Sorrow/despair/sadness also comes in my shapes or forms. At some point during my laughing fits and being manoeuvred around the kitchen, I had managed
to pick up a tea towel which I just held in my right. My awareness shifted to the tea towel, and I just though to myself "what's that for?" and as
quickly as I had asked the question, I had the answer. I dropped to my knees as something was being explained to me, brought the tea towel to my
mouth, with both hands and started screaming and crying into it. The Images in my head were of uniformity, sameness, human like people In suits just
watching me cry and scream my little heart out. Again my awareness shifted to the tea towel and I laughed, cried some more, and then I stood up.
Awareness shifted to the future, "where do I go? what do I do?" it was at this point I was shown the now/present. I had an image in my head of just
running out into the middle of the road in nothing but my underwear and doing a cartwheel because I could, and why not? I didn't.. but I could
The images were clear at this point, and I was brought to thoughts about shows I had watched. Specifically stargate. It was as though I was being
questioned "why not live a life in an environment such as this?" (paraphrasing) it tickled my interest. I became excited, and awed that I could choose
where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do, what I wanted to be. Then doctor who came to mind, and that set me off on one. It was almost too much to
handle, though I wouldn't be "The Doctor" exactly, I knew it would be close enough for me to be happy living that life.
At this point I was running around locking the house up and preparing myself for a journey. I went back to the kitchen and stood in the middle, became
very relaxed and started to drift. By drift I mean I felt my body recoiling on itself, my mind receding to the top of my head. My eyes were closed and
all I could see we're two circles next to each other which I was heading towards. I started passing between them, then I came too. My body was swaying
violently in a circular motion, still in the kitchen.
I was running around the house crying to myself "I understand" again and again, wanting to write it down but knowing I would never have enough time. I
felt rushed, like there wasn't much time left.
During the experience all i was able to say was "oh my god" out loud and until that night, I never knew how many ways that little phrase, which we
have all said or thought at least once in our lives regardless of belief/religion, whether conciously/subconciously, could be expressed. It iss a
phrase that has entered the minds of every human consciousness on some level.
I have a new perspective on life. And wish you all, the best.
edit on 24-7-2013 by Erifno because: Details