posted on Feb, 27 2013 @ 01:51 PM
I was going to do this as a chronological history, but as i am on my phone it doesnt seem practical to do so.
So, some basic facts about my current relationship: we have known each other since we were five, were out of touch for thirteen years, got back in
contact started dating, been together five years, have two kids, and I have a third from a previous whom I have full custody of.
In the beginning, intimacy was great. We were on the same page in everyway. Immediately after finding out she was pregnant, she literally stopped
wanting to. I knew this was a thing, so I wasnt too worried. During this time, I was told by her that she considers 'taking matters into your own
hands' cheating, as I am looking for satisfaction elsewhere. But she was never willing to compromise on my end. During this time even when we did, it
was limited by what she could do while pregnant; again, I get it, no big deal.
I was scheduled to be fixed a few month after my first daughter was born. In what will turn out to be quite convinient, for the several months in
between, she was back to her old self. Then she found out she was pregnsnt again, and still has not wanted to in the almost two years since she was
born. At this point, while bothered, I coukd still live with it.
However, during this time, she has told exes she loved them, tried to 'see if guys would try to pick her up', and even offered to go to an old
suitors house so they could hook up, and stsrted reading erotica (remember, 'doing it yourself is cheating').
Realizing that the problen may be on my end, I ask her what is wrong. First, she tells me I am boring.....again, remember that we were limited due to
her pregnancy, and I often 'opened the door' to other things. So I try switching things up, but she always cut foreplay short and stuck with the
same things she was complaining were boring. Next, she says she likes it when I initiate, and so I go to, often being flirty and whatnot through the
day......she always cuts me off, saying its bad timing, but never aids me in knowing the proper times on her end. Next, I bother her too much for it.
So for the next five days, I dont bother her for it at all. On the fifth day, she wakes up crying that she feels unnattractive, and leaves.
A few days later I have a female friend over, and the moment she finds out, she is back, the first week is like the good ol days, and literally right
back to the same. That was last november. It is still the same.
I am bothered mostly that she is clearly interested in sex, but not with me, but cannot admit it to any degree that can allow it to fix.