Thanks for all your answers
I would say trust does change everything, it is sad to read that there is no trust but fear.
That is 'the question', "have I lived at all"
Mostly we are caught in the prison of becoming or burdened with the past, that is a living death.
Breaking with the past means that the future falls away with it, but it is not easely done.
This is also the key of misunderstanding between me and others around me.
They cannot understand that i hold no feelings of hate and frustration towards some people who have hurted me in the past.
Moreover, at the funeral of my mother i said i was proud of her, and gave a little speech that i wrote.
Months later, they altered this speech and returned it to me with a proverbial knife in my back.
At times like that, one finds out what it means to be alone, having no one because nobody seems to understand me.
For me, everyone, no matter what they have done, is able to change.
The winds of time leaves nothing untouched, and if we hold on to the past and the image we have of a certain person, that image will distort the
present when i meet that person again.
And we have seen our parents change for the better, becoming loving people instead of depressed and hateful.
Anyway this is getting to personal, so i'll stop here, but your question is the right one