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Originally posted by smyleegrl
All my life I've had this feeling of.....waiting. For what? I do not know. I only know that it feels as if something's out there, and I'm at the mercy of its timeline.
I wish I could describe this waiting sensation better, but I don't know that I can.
So I go through my daily routine, waiting for this....something.....and all the while life passes by.
Is it a distraction? Or is my lifestyle distracting me from discovering what I'm waiting for?
I'm 38 years old, I feel like I'm 18, and yet my life is halfway over in all likelihood. And the waiting continues, on and on.
Do you feel it? Have you discovered what you're waiting for? Or, like me, do you still wait?
Any and all replies welcomed.
Originally posted by AfterInfinity
reply to post by smyleegrl
This is going to be an extremely morbid reply, but...since you asked...
I'm waiting for something miraculous to happen. I'm waiting for a reason to live. In the absence of that, I'm waiting to die, because right now I don't see much justification for being here in this plane of existence. It certainly doesn't feel rewarding.
Again, morbid...but it's the most honest answer you'll get from me on a subject so vague.
You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Originally posted by abeverage
Originally posted by Peekingsquatch
Originally posted by abeverage
"I often feel like I was misplaced in time but I have always felt like I have wanted to be at this time of human existence."
I think that is probably the best explanation I could not put in to words...
Originally posted by Galadriel
reply to post by PurpleVortex
I too keep coming back to read all the posts -- and now I have to get some sleep so I can get up for work in the morning
But wanted to say that I think the "it doesn't matter anyway" pertains to the mundane, the societal, the expectations of what life is supposed to be --- and what really does matter is the love we have for one another and for the life on this planet, truth, authenticity, kindness, compassion, and joy we find, share and treasure. That matters. Being creative, being present -- matters.
Why we feel the world will change in some way, I don't know. Why many of us have felt it since childhood--long before we read or heard things about the environment, politics, lies and shadows--we felt something was going to take place and we would be part of that "change" - whatever it was (will be). So it colors our view of the day-to-day world we live in, and others seem to not feel and sense this.
Glad to see someone as young as you so awake and aware. Maybe the "change" is just us remembering who we are and why we are here -- and nothing more. But, that could be everything.
BILL MOYERS: Do you ever have the sense of... being helped by hidden hands? JOSEPH CAMPBELL: All the time. It is miraculous. I even have a superstition that has grown on me as a result of invisible hands coming all the time - namely, that if you do follow your bliss you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. When you can see that, you begin to meet people who are in your field of bliss, and they open doors to you. I say, follow your bliss and don't be afraid, and doors will open where you didn't know they were going to be.