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Originally posted by thedoctorswife
reply to post by Sly1one
Ive always felt like im a different race from my peers. I can remember in my late teens being dragged out to nightclubs by "friends", and not having any clue how people could be enjoying being packed into dark, hot, expensive hellholes incapable of holding a conversation also Ive never understand the human desire for the aquisition of material wealth.
its horrible and difficult "being different". I want our time to come, i want my world/life back. Does that make sense??
Originally posted by SecretKnowledge
we all feel this way because we know that the way we live our lives in general is wrong. deep down we know this.
society is wrong. the haves and have not's is wrong. famine is wrong. material wealth is wrong.
and so on and so on.
we are not of this society. well, we are, but it does'nt sit right with us.
we know there's a better way, but yet we cannot change it.
the feeling of something's gonna happen is, for me, a false positive.
that is, something should happen. but because it does'nt, this feeling continues to slowly torture my soul.
Originally posted by jcutler12888
reply to post by CirqueDeTruth
I'm so glad to find people who can identify and relate to my crazy, odd, and outright weird life! Being raised with half of a "Gypsy" family and half of a "Gaje" or "Gorger" family is truly a strange experience. "Country people" or outsiders, like my father's side of my family, do everything as American as apple pie...then, "gypsies" like my mother's side of the family do things in ways that completely shock outsiders...and that along with the constant Catholic vs. Southern Baptist battle that was waged in my home made for a whacked out experience growing up and lots of marital strife between my parents...and I turned out half Gypsified and half Americanized, half Catholic and half Baptist, LOL. What were the unusual circumstances of your birth? I love a good story. Same with my maternal grandmother's family...it was a "woman's" thing and they claimed I had the "gift" and was born with the veil, blah blah blah...I don't wanna go into all the witchy s***, all of which I'm sure you're aware of having Roma in your family.
I didn't expect to find others like me. It's really reassuring to know that I'm not a strange product of an uncommon life.
Originally posted by HumansEh
I salute you all. Interesting the common theme and age profile of members who have replied so far. It's almost palpable this tension. I have been awaiting something I cannot describe or envisage for a long time now.
I lead the life of a hermit and have shut myself away from the world, this isn't due to depression or being anti social. I simply cannot pretend to fit into theworld as it is. I am not unhappy although lonliness can get overwhelming sometimes. (Celibacy ain't much fun most of the time either )
I do all my talking here on Ats and for many weeks at a time the only human I interact with on a personal level is the person I thank when buying groceries.
I too feel like I am waiting,
Waiting for my place in the world to reveal itself.
Maybe not too many misanthropic hermits here, but it is nice to know that I'm not the only one awaiting death or destiny
Thanx Smyleegirl s&f4u.