Ive been a member for a while now, yet mostly lurk these forums for their interesting topics.
I have a special interest in spirituality and other paranormal studies for the same reason most of you are; the mysterious. now before i start the
story i shall elaborate on my current mindset.
I have practiced meditation for a few months about a year ago. Now only when in distress and when im extremely tense i will resort to mediation. lets
say i meditate once or twice every month. This makes me a rookie when compared to other practitioners. Hell i wont even call myself something, for i
am not doing it consistently. This has a reason: i usually dont experience anything.
i have grown up with science.I have a college degree in this as well. I was taught how to be concise, straight forward and take nothing for granted
unless evidence is shown etc. etc. a.k.a. skeptical. I have, however, never closed my mind to spirituality nor the UFO phenomenon, because we're
still in a phase of uncertainty, therefore i cannot conclude anything, nor will i ever do so unless proven wrong.(i do not take testimonies for
granted, Professor Neil Degrasse Tyson has a proper explanation for that)
Now onto my story:
i took a shower today to ease my mind.
i sat down in the shower, in meditative stance, i would lower my head so i was a little bend over, whilst letting the water touch my neck and back. i
would focus on my breathing and become calm. after 5 minutes of continuous focusing on my breath i would raise my head, which was now engulfed in the
stream of the shower(we have a raindrop shower, so the streams are very soft).
After 10-20 seconds i started seeing waves. Waves of black liquid flowing into each other. Sometimes a part of a face would appear,sometimes just the
mouth and nose part, somtimes 1 side of a face and rarely a whole face. this continued for 5 minutes. I could make out some faces(i believe) and
therefore claimed that these were faces i'd have seen over my life. Including movie faces. I would occassionally see a jungle-type area. The area was
pretty dense and i would only see a couple of trees. my guess would be a rain-forest.
after those faces, they disappeared. Only black liquid again. Then in the middle of my vision i could see a single eye. The eye was open. I recall it
being black but it was probably brown, because thats more logical. It blinked.
When it did i could make up half of his face. (Notice i claim it to be a him immediatly after seeing his face. Following instinct and face recognition
here). It was a weird, feral like face. I would say not of this generation, but either a different one or somewhere else i dont know. I kept asking
myself: who is this? why can i only see him so profoundly? after 5-10 seconds(as it felt) from the inside all of a sudden i realized it was me. it was
the same feeling as if you remembered a question. It kept blinking. Showing no sign of recognizing me looking at him. He looked calm. I felt all sorts
of emotions rising, both happiness, adrenaline,fear and sadness.
i connected to this face and recognized it being me, even though i have never seen such a face, nor does it look anything like me at all.
He closed his eye and the black liquid started filling up again. I became aware of me being in the shower again and decided to open my eyes. As i
would think back of these images i became emotional. Tears filling up my eyes making me feel distanced from him.
I dont know this man/thing. I drew him to my best ability, maybe someone can enlighten me on who this man is/was. I could only make out this part of
his face. all around him was the black liquid. he had a feral look, because of the wrinkles on his nose. It looked like as if he was frowning, but i
soon recognized that was his normal facial expression. his tan was more or less hispanic/brazillian like. this made me believe he was the inhabitant
of this jungle. the outline of his face isnt absolute either, because i could not make that up properly. i could, however make up that his
nose-line(this a word?) was longer than a normal human.
1. random face i've ever seen somewhere, but cant consciously remember
2. subconsciously i want to be this man, therefore claimed it was me.
3. im nuts.