posted on Feb, 20 2013 @ 06:45 PM
Thanks everyone for your responses.
The reason that I said "I know people are going to call me crazy" etc so much is because I knew they would.
#, I didn't mean to put that link to her or my Youtube there. Crap. Now I do feel sorry for her and I'm calling her "poor girl" as well, lol.
Well, but, now that you see her, you can see what I mean. Does she not look like a withered version of Zelda?
Many of you didn't read or just completely voided certain parts of what I wrote.
Namely, other people in my life admitting to these coincidences not being coincidences. Such as the chat room example, stuff like that has happened
more than a few times,
and also HER admitting to it. Yes. she has admitted to all of this.
But even if she did, what could I do about it?
I'm not violent, or harmful. And, like I said, everything you "psychologist reccomenders" have said I've heard before.
I'm not obsessed, I'm not. But anyone would be what I was in a situation like that, which is intrigued, and they would delve further.
I know what it feels like to be obsessed, even though I haven't ever really been before, and it interrupts your life in the sense that you have no
control over it.
I had plenty of control myself in this scenario, and could have given up and left any time. And I still maintained a life in spite of it. Although,
for any Conspiracy focuses, or anything that took my interest in that sense (Like many of you focus on 9/11 or whatever conspiracy) this was the
central conspiracy focus of mine.
See what I mean? I've had a life, but the conspiracy focus in my life, like UFOs or 9/11 or several others might be yours, just happened to be this
You guys have lives, yet still have time to focus on conspiracies. That's all this is. And I have and still do admit that I need help, why? Not
because I need help I've realized, but for precisely the same reason that one poster said is that we need to "admit to needing help to get help".
and that's precisely true, no matter what our condition or state of mind, we should all be willing to admit at any point that we are completely wrong
and need help. Even if what we're experiencing is real.
I DO have that willingness, I really do, and have presented it to therapists who are utterly speechless after hearing so many coincidences. Yes, they
can't help me. After they've heard the full story, which you haven't, some (therapists) have tended to believe me and some just don't know what
to say. Some of them resort to lies so I don't end up psycho-analyzing them instead. I know what you're saying, "Oh well they're not lying you
just can't accept the truth." Then tell me... is this not a lie?
I was at a therapist and I asked her if she felt connections with others, spiritual connections, she said no. I said, not even God, or Jesus? She
said no. I said, "so you don't believe in external influence, you don't believe if you love someone over seas that has gone to war that you are
sharing something? You just believe that you are two bodies isolated across the world with completely separate brains and only your memories?" She
said "well yes, I suppose"
Then, next time I go in. I see on her ankle (she was wearing shorter pants this time) a CROSS tattoo.
I was like "hey! wait a second. you told me you weren't spiritual or believed in such a thing."
She was like "Oh, well, I guess I didn't get what you mean." then I was like "Do you believe in SPIRITUAL connections, with anything?" I was
very clear this time, even though I was before, too. and she was like "I guess I don't know what you mean." then i reiterated the question...
then she was like "Oh, well, I suppose, but let's talk about such and such."
But I've had a therapist, and a few people who I talked to online that were therapists agree with me. They said I was not obsessive or making this
up, but something very similar to what the other people here said, is that I have to take it for what it is, and still take care of myself.
So tell me, folks, what do you do when your therapists agrees with you? Heh.
Psychiatrists won't even talk about it. They're more interested in just making sure I'm medicated and stable.
In fact, the funny thing about Psychiatrists is that they typically won't argue with you, as they'll admit they don't really know if what you're
experiencing is real or not.
You don't believe me that I've heard all these "advices" before? (Mind you some advices were very great and I appreciate them, thank you.) Then
why do I list them in the original post? I quote before EACH and everyone of you says it, exactly what you're going to say "leave the poor girl
alone" "you need a doctor" etc...
That's not just because I've been through this for THREE years.
This isn't just some post on ATS for me that I can say "oh this dudes bat # crazy" then on with the next crazy poster.