posted on Feb, 19 2013 @ 07:51 PM
The man made world is satanic...I get it. But why did you put me in it. If I had the ability to move to the wilderness id do it, but I have so many
people and so much red tape holding me where I am. Id rather take my chances with wolves and grizzly bears any day than the human race.. that's too
harsh, as I know most people are not predators, but the "good" among us almost always turn a blind eye or stand quietly cowering in the face of
evil..hell, most people cant even see the evil in their own lives these days its so ingrained in every inch of this society. each year I live I make
more enemies, people I would like to see dead and yet I do not go out to acquire these enemies, they just come into my life repeatedly. Wanting
people dead cant be healthy can it..but some of the things done to me have been so malicious its unforgivable. Am I the only one who feels its not
getting any better either?
So I am a salmon swimming upstream, fighting against the rapids that drag me backward, backward to hating people, instead of loving them. I'm tired
of fighting a losing battle especially when it feels like im doing it on my own. God if your listening to me, then understand Ive had enough, my
dreams are dead in the dirt, my hopes are burnt to ashes long ago, and I only live because i am alive, with no real purpose or calling. Life has
knocked most good out of me and yet I cant bring myself to be totally bad, then again id no longer call myself good either, like everyone else ive
been too exposed to the sewage and pollution to be a saint, because to be a good person you would need to be innocent of everything...more is the pity
as its the bad and evil who thrive here, like I said this world is satanic..I was born into it, what chance did I have. You gave me free will to see
the good from evil but you also tied my hands. Like a few billion other people, i could really use a miracle right now, like ive needed one thousands
of times before, you never grant it, just give me another day here in a preview of hell.