reply to post by Joneselius
I do understand what you went through, and are still going through.
In one moment, you want to shout it from the rooftop, to share, because it was a lifechanging moment in time, and it hardly seems fair to keep it to
yourself. By the same token, however, you can never fully give the resonance of that experience, because even if someone had been standing right next
to you, it may have affected them in a totally different way.
But, I do understand the shock, surprise, awe, and mystery of it all. Especially when it happens and you weren't looking for it or expecting it, or
hoping, and it just happens. That seems to be,ironically, when it does. It isn't just the moment in time, but the aftermath. Literally, the years,
because every time you think about it, you almost are forced to refocus your life again.
It's easy sometimes, to forget for a time, but not for long. It's almost like an innocence is gone. That's why I see it as almost cursing someone to
wish it upon them, because all the misery and upheaval that happens in your life isn't worth it.
In the end, what have you, or I really gained? So we know, beyond the shadow of a doubt, things are not as they seem. Yet, we are both helpless to
change others minds, helpless to DO anything about it, and if they come back, are helpless to be anything but victims to them.
I think that is what bothers me the most is the sense if powerlessness, both from them, and that which is inflicted upon you from skeptics and
non-believers. I have no drive to convince anyone, I just don't. But, I wish I did have answers, and have come to realize I most likely never will.
As I said in an earlier post, you just have to take from it what you can, adjust your life accordingly, and try to move on. There are no other
choices. If it changes your paradigm, then you have to make that adjustment.
I have not decided if they are evil or not, ir if I proscribe a goodness or evilness to them at all, but I do not feel they are going to save us from
ourselves. Learn from our mistakes, perhaps, but saving us from ourselves will serve no purpose but to postpone the inevitable. Mankind never changes,
and history repeats itself.
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