I have psychogenic tremors, somatoform disorder and conversion disorder.
I was already in a wheelchair for almost 40 years (from a car crash, broken back, partial parplegic) when a car backed out a driveway and ran me down.
As I saw that the car had 'control of me', after scanning my surroundings, as I do when driving my car, I blanked out! I do not remember landing on
the ground, but I came to in excruciating pain, broken left femur, oblique fracture at head and stalk of the bone. While awaiting an ambulance my
arms flew up into the air and shook like crazy, my left eye ''ticed', my left cheek shook, my nose twitched and sneered, like Dick Cheney ,my teeth
gnashed together and then all would settle down, only to start up again. That was 4 years ago, March 27, 2009.
I still have these tremors. My GP did not believe this, nor the Neurologist to whom he referred me. I said I then wanted a referral to a Physiatrist
(doctor of physical medicine... there were 2 of them in the Rehab hospital of 1969-70's 1st crash.) The GP said I was overdoctoring and that no one
would ever have a diagnosis for me. I had him put that in writing.
The waiting period for a Physiatrist is a long time. My lawyer finally had me booked for May 16, 2012. In that doctor's report, prepared for all of
me, as acceptable in a Court of Law, he stated:
34 #TREMOR I agree with the neurological opinion of Dr. M. that the tremor does not
35 appear to be organic; that is, it appears to be of psychological origin as opposed to neurologically 36 based. In other words, the tremor is caused
by psychological factors as opposed to any injury of
37 the nervous system.
38 #3 ADJUSTMENT DISORDER. I agree with Dr. E, clinical psychologist, that the
39 trauma of the 2009 MVA has overwhelmed Ms. T. and rendered her more anxious than
40 normal. The increased anxiety has had both emotionally and somatoform manifestations. On an
41 emotional level, Ms. T. has experienced increased nervousness with a diminished ability
42 to cope. On a somatoform level, she has developed the aforementioned psychogenic tremor.
43 The psychogenic tremor would be considered a somatoform disorder in which there is
44 conversion of psychological distress (anxiety) into a physical problem (tremor). I defer to a
45 mental health specialist with regard to the prognosis of the adjustment disorder and psychogenic 46 tremor.
This was explained to me that when the mind has had too many traumas, it can convert a Psychological Trauma to a Physical (visible) problem
I can list all the psychological traumas from childhood up to this last accident, physically abusive father, dysfunctional family (taunting by
bullying siblings), judgment over my having an illegiimate child before it was 'popular', the first car crash and paralysis, her father suicided,
daughter grew up to marry a Narcissistic control freak, who dismissed me (1991), then she left him and took the 3 grandchildren, whom I don't know,
met an Narcissist of my own (a repeat of my rageful father), left him, then this car crash.
There were 3 surgeries, the last was to remove the femoral head (it died) and now no longer have use of my left leg. (I ambulated for decades on
crutches, and used the 'chair as well).
When my mind blanked out, I can see it "telling me" that I didn't need another trauma, or I might lose my mind, so I converted it to a physical
problem, the tremors.
I know this is referred to as a mental disorder, but at least I know what it is, in comparison to always wondering what the neurological problem could
be......!! No one who knows me considers me 'crazy'.
edit on 1-3-2013 by canadiansenior70 because: spell