A Twice Broken Heart

I try to make my days the best I can
covering up this wounded man.
I hide behind my smiling face,
two failed marriages to my disgrace

I am older now and showing it
and even if I got up the courage
to think again about marriage.
They’re all looking for a man that’s fit

I long for the sound of a female voice,
for the fragrance of her body,
for the soft skin of her face
and the warmth of a long held embrace

The luxury of lying together
in a bed made warm by shared love
To marvel at her beauty
and gaze upon her from above.

Twice I trusted and twice betrayed.
Both times I felt like it was the end of my life,
the ache in my heart was the serrated knife

It took 5 years to pick myself up after the first.
It has only been 2 years now and I’m feeling cursed.
How can I ever trust again?
What has been my terrible sin?

What are my chances that I will join with her soul.
That she will remain loyal and faithful?
They both declared until death do us part,
but they lied and cheated and broke my heart

I long for that friend and lover.
I don’t want to live these lonely years.
I don’t want to live with these fears.
I pray love doesn’t pass me over.

reply to post by grayeagle


I know exactly how you feel.
Thanks for your poem.

reply to post by grayeagle

That was wonderful, grayeagle! You speak from the heart and with such elegance and grace, you will not be alone for long.

Your true heart and spirit shines through in your writing and there is a kindred spirit,who is pure of heart and with a heart filled with kindness and love that will meet you and "see" you and realize that! I hope you write more to share with folks here, true heart! Blessings. ^j^ Thanx for sharing and reminding us there are people such as yourself that are caring and loving. We have all been "injured" in this life one way or another and it is never wrong to reach out and try and find comfort. By sharing our words, we open the windows to our soul...the eyes are the windows to the soul, they say....and so are words spoken from the heart.

Helen Conway and shrevegal thank you both for your comments. It means a lot to me. I have come to a place in my life where I want to be more congruent. The same on the outside as on the inside. I hope at some point I meet another lady as kind and thoughtful as both of you

Excellent,
We have quite a few great writers contributing these days.
I've been following a few and found another.

Keep up the great work.

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Thanks for your kind words. I respect your comments and appreciate your contributions to ATS. I will continue to write as it appears to be the healthiest thing I can do in my life at this time. ATS keeps me thinking and staying engaged in this world.

reply to post by grayeagle


Thats a wonderful piece of writing, And im sure you will find what your looking for my friend