posted on Feb, 8 2013 @ 11:10 PM
I really like that kaballistic tree of life picture. Although I don't study Jewish mysticism, and don't know much about the tree of life, just the
picture you can see when you Google the image I continue to verify it's accuracy through personal life experiences over time.
I wish I could make this thread better by posting a picture, but the phone I use to come to ATS on isn't very user friendly. But please, if you have
never seen a picture of the tree of life, check it out. It is a very intelligently crafted image.
Now on to the topic.
Knowledge gave me mental strength. I was on top of the world and not afraid of anyone and was ready to take ke on anyone and anything. I adopted a
survivalist attitude where it was me or you and I chose me. It got to a point where I became intolerant of weakness. At the same time, I didn't
tolerate disrespect either. That's about the time I lost my soul, so to speak.
This went on for a while, not too long though, until I had enough of feeling empty inside. I realized that no matter how bad I want to, I can't make
people smarter or stronger minded. I also realized that some people are going to be disrespectful no matter how much you fight them. That only left me
with one logical way to handle it. Have mercy on them.
Before, this was unthinkable. Being merciful, to me, seemed like a threat to my survival. And I'm not about to stop being a survivor. But I wasn't
sure if this was entirely true, so I did give mercy a chance. What I learned is that letting people insult you and forgiving them for it doesn't make
you vulnerable or weak. It makes your life better and makes surviving easier. Insults aren't really threats most of the time. Most of the time,
people can't help it. I just walk away. I don't defend myself. What's the point? It won't stop them. I be the bigger person and acknowledge it in
my head and then just let it go. I'm not even mad at them as much as I used to would have been.
Showing mercy has not ended my life, but filled a void in it and made my life how I think it should be. I still think it is good to be strong, but
preying on the weak and looking for trouble to prove a point is a weakness from where I'm sitting.