I have to take the time to apologize here.
Lately I’ve been a little less than kind in my interactions with other members and have found myself guilty of those one line posts that do nothing
but insult other members whether deserved or not. To be honest, less than cool.
I’ve been really stressed with my business lately and have found myself having a few too many JD shots at night and we all know where that leads.
Stress + alcohol + ATS…What could possibly be wrong with this equation?
Last night was an eye opener for me and although I can’t mention the member’s name here, I believe he’ll know these words of apology extend to
him as well as a few others. I can’t believe I was so rude to another member in good standing and hope that an apology is accepted. Truly.
When I first joined ATS I was like a kid with a new toy. I devoured threads both new and old. I asked questions of other members and gave respect
where it was earned. I wrote threads galore and loved every minute of it. I lost and started a business while being a member. Then started another one
which many members were intrigued by and quite a few gave advice as well as an open invitation to ask for help at any time if needed. So what went
I got jaded to put it simply. Opening one’s eyes to the reality of the World is one thing but to have reality stand up and deliver a smack down to
the heart and soul is quite another. I found myself hating everything, not trusting anything or anyone. People, Govt. Big Biz…everything. I started
to live in a shell because I couldn’t talk to anyone in my life about everything I’ve learned in the last year or so. In short, frustrated to the
point of looking at everyone around me and thinking “What the hell is wrong with you? Can’t you see the truth? If not, go away because I don’t
have time to explain it all.”
Yup, that’s how it got to be. Not cool at all. I should have taken the role as a teacher rather than looking down at others for not seeing what is
really going on out there. Pretty bad huh?
I know that I as well as many others have seen a significant change in ATS that is quite simply puzzling. I won’t go into that issue here as it’s
been done many times. I got to the point of not creating threads anymore. Then my business was struggling and I got depressed. Now my business is
passing me by in what I can only say is success. A new stress level has been born. Can’t sleep? JD shots to the rescue. But then just one more
check-in to ATS….and there it is.
I know I’m rambling here and what was supposed to be a short apology is getting a little long. So I will just say that I’m sorry to those that
I’ve offended. Many know me as not being that guy. Well, not always.
If I could spank myself I would but that might require more than just a few
In closing, I promise to do better on these boards and to be a part of the solution once again instead of being part of the problem.
Just had to get it out there.
Peace to all!
edit on 8-2-2013 by jude11 because: (no reason given)