Originally posted by 0thetrooth0
i dont live right. i want to do whatever i wana do wherever i wana do it however i wana do it. im a bit selfish. i do alot of what is considered
"sins" now im not no rapist murderer etc. but im not a saint either. it does matter if its real or not because if it is im probably going there
Then maybe this is your conscience trying to give you a wakeup call. If you feel how you're living isn't the right way, you have the power to change
that. But try not to be too hard on yourself, either. You do what you want to do... but does that mean you end up hurting others in some way, because
you're doing what you want? For me, that would be the main defining element as to whether the action was "right" or "wrong." IMO doing what you
want to do and NOT harming anyone else, isn't all that bad. Another angle to consider-- is it harming YOU? Because I think sometimes self-harm can be
as bad as harming another. Especially if that self-harm prevents you, somehow, from being a better person who might do good
the world. Like, for example, if you wasted your life due to some type of addiction. To be fair, when we indulge a harmful addiction, we are often
harming others around us in some way anyway.... but I digress....
If you are looking at this from a judeo-christian standpoint, allow me to point a few things out to you:
First of all, "hell" as it's presented in the English bible is a mis-translation and/or misinterpretation. In the old testament, the only word
translated as "hell" is "sheol" which literally translates to "ground" or "in the ground." So when the OT says if thus-and-such you'll go to
hell, it means you'll go into the ground. Death. The New Testament translates several different words as hell: Gehenna, Hades, and Tartarus.
Gehenna is the only term used by Christ himself which is translated in this way. And that word actually describes a place outside Jerusalem was trash
was thrown. I believe a more proper translation used in that way is "you will be trash" or "thrown away like trash."
Hades is a word borrowed from the Greeks
and it does describe an "underworld." Christ does not use this term. Tartarus is also borrowed from
and it does describe a place of torment. I believe "Tartarus" is only used in the book of Revelation, though i might be wrong
on that point. As you can see, however, all of these terms which in english just get squashed into "hell" are all borrowed from Greek
Does that mean we should pray to Zeus, etc?
The book of Revelation (a book I'm not sure I entirely trust, to be honest) does describe a lake of fire and a second death. The "lake of fire" is
where judged souls are supposedly thrown, so that they may be destroyed
not for purposes of torture. This interpretation is in line with the
"sheol" of the old testament-- a spiritual death. The soul is destroyed so that it is cut off from god.
What I suspect this is actually talking about, is this: When you do something which you know is not good, which you know is wrong, you are moving
away from, cutting yourself off from, that part of god that is within yourself. This is hell. Or at least, a kind of hell. That terrible feeling you
get inside, when you feel you're not living up to what you could be. Could this mean something else? A "real" second death-- of the everlasting
soul? Maybe, I suppose. But I'd like to think not. People, and all our choices-- good or terrible, are partly a result of our situation, and all the
experiences we've ever had. Our mind is formed from our many experiences. No two minds put in the same situation will react exactly the same way. If
we have a truly loving and understanding god, then god knows this. IMO punishing someone eternally for what was a product of their circumstance, does
not seem particularly loving or forgiving to me. And I think the hell we put ourselves through, with guilt, can be pretty bad, at times. And I have
always had this suspicion-- you know how they say when you die, it's like you review or re-live your life? I have long suspected that even those of
us who feel little guilt, or have little understanding, see everything clearly in that moment. Maybe that's also what hell is-- that final moment of
clarity when you truly see the impact of your actions on the world-- for good or bad.
Anyway.... I like to think it's never too late. If you feel you're not living right, then make it right
. But don't be too hard on yourself,
in the process.