posted on Feb, 6 2013 @ 08:18 AM
WHAT WAS ME? No social identity, no one to look up to, no relationship to any religion, no belief, no knowledge, no hobbies, no
interest, no passion. Only a subtle BELIEF IN NON BELIEF. In layman's terms, 'I see all THE WRONG, and I strive towards what is RIGHT' aka 'Your
Way is Bogus, Go Suck a Lemon,' leading one to WISDOM.
My father was weak, distant, complacent, under pressure, complaining - he was a lie.
My mother was abusive, controlling, negative, hateful - she was a lie.
Broken family, no brother, no sisters, no one in your corner, - lie.
The corporate world dragging the family down - lie..
Sports going from fun to judgement and anger - lie.
My possessions, intelligence, internet, escapes, - lie.
My privacy, friends, education, goals, direction, support, - lie.
Out of the chaos, order was found by becoming a NON PARTICIPANT IN LIFE.
Rebelling without a cause? No, Rebelling WITH a cause- to shatter lies
But what do I know? Only my consciousness. As the mind seeks balance, the internet confirmed my conscious awareness of EMPTINESS, I saw it
everywhere, I realized that I knew it was everywhere and everything. I KNEW SOMETHING. Explaining this to my family,
lashing back, ''You're stupid, You have no money, no job, no life, You're nobody!''
Complete detachment from everything follows, leading to ARROGANCE because I FINALLY KNEW SOMETHING. I was confident in something,
but what was it? Not knowing 'WHAT I KNEW' and how to apply it to daily life, meant continuous failure - attached to thinking ''I KNOW BETTER''
and not having any directional knowledge, means many distractions were caught, and much time wasted by NOT ADDRESSING THINGS IN TOTALITY.
Once viewed as ''REBEL WITHOUT A CAUSE'' was in reality, ''REBEL WITH A CAUSE:'' rebelling against THE LIES. Planting a flag in
the soil, the mission objective was COMPLETE REJECTION of SOCIETY, rejection of contribution, rejection of 'self adjustment,' rejection of
responsibility, rejection of life, rejection of identity, rejection of lies, rejection of family, rejection of fake friends, rejection of jobs,
REJECTION OF EVERYTHING until nothing is left, but something...AND that something was TRUTH.
Surrounded by dysfunction, abnormality, confusion, yet INSIDE THE MIND was an experience unfolding that was similar and different to the world of
illusion- bound by UNIVERSAL LAW or NATURAL LAW, which is supreme to mankind's WORLDLY LAW which holds NO WEIGHT in the NATURE OF REALITY. If man and
woman lived REAL LIVES they would not be SLAVES, and they would OWN EVERYTHING and take delight in life.
A sympton of this nature is the inability to feel POOR OR BROKE, despite outward circumstances, ONE WILL MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING, and miracles
will occur and NOTHING MAKES SOMETHING OUT OF YOU ! Examples of NATURAL LAW ARE as follows: 1. I will always eat, I will never starve. 2. I will harm
myself, but never harm another. 3. I will like what I like and I will be me without concern for what anyone thinks. Of these LAWS, one is JUDGE AND
JURY - the heart knows what is what, and you cannot LIE TO YOUR SOUL !
Every day of every year for INFINITY, I have everything, I own everything. I AM EVERYTHING. The SUN, STARS AND MOON all arrive in due time and form.
Now, there is no REBEL, only GODHEAD, only ONENESS, only INFINITE LOVE and desire for GOODNESS for all.
In this state, there is BEAUTY, JOY, SUPPORT, GROWTH, KNOWING, RESOLVE !
There is no QUESTIONING, only the mind's luminous PLACE OF RETURN, which never changes and cannot be changed. At any moment, the plane of continuity
of mental baseline exists and is realized when the ''leaves are brushed aside to reveal what lies beneath''. As this is being written, the
awareness of being aware of the awareness of emptiness persists
Peace, I love you all.