Dear RooskiZombie,
I understand how you are feeling.....honestly, I do.
You have received some very good advice here from others, regarding diet, meditation, etc.
About a year ago I bought a book....but didn't read it until recently. It helped me more than anything that I had read, heard or tried in the past.
It helped me understand myself....and also helped me to change how I think.
That was the part I couldn't change before.....how I think!
I am feeling much better lately and I credit this one book (and author) for my.....breakthrough (for lack of a better word).
The title is, "Why People Don't Heal...and How They Can" by Caroline Myss, PhD.
Personally, I have not paid much attention when others have offered "self help" books....but this one gave me the understanding and tools (so to
speak) to put closure to my painful and abusive past.
I truly hope that you find what you need, to heal and move forward with your life. You're not alone.
jacygirl