reply to post by Dharma Employee
I don't think it's entirely Scorpios. I'm a Pisces, last year I started breaking down. I was getting sick a lot, partly due to work conditions, (cold
wet environment, physically demanding job, long hours), I was tired of getting taken advantage of. I'm the guy who always says yes to extra work,
covering shifts for guys who have hangovers, always says yes to overtime, willingly accepts more responsibility than I'm supposed to have. I worked
myself to exhaustion, I was sick, I literally came home from work, slept got up ate, went to work felt like a bag of #, loathed everyone for putting
their work on me and ended up physically ill with a psychotic break to top it off. I #ing lost it, for lack of better words. My neck, shoulders back,
kidneys, throat all hurt. I had stomach problems, and I shook like I was freezing all the time. This persisted for months, leading to me missing a
great deal of work, and spending a whole hell of a lot of time at the Dr's office and lab. Tests out my ass, for plenty of really scary things when
you're in the position I was in. Tested for mono first, the menengitis, then thyroid problems, diabetes, hepatitis, gray's, parkinsons, Palsy, kidney
function, Adrenal problems etc. They kept sticking me with needles, taking samples, Throwing out all these really terrifying "causes" to which none of
them came back positive. I was over exerted, exhausted, sick as all hell, and all because of stress.
I worked myself to near death(not quite that extreme, but I looked god awful and felt pretty bad too.) So I quit, after a month or so of inability to
work, lack of support from my employers(EVEN THOUGH I WAS THEIR #ING WORK HORSE WHO DIDN'T MISS A DAMN DAY!) So I told them to get stuffed. Took about
2 months to start feeling better, used my savings to travel across the country, spent some time back east with my fiance's family, and here I am.
Happier, healthy and currently looking for work, which in itself is not that easy it seems. Hang in there. In some ways, I turned my life upside down
on top of valid reasons, but if I didn't listen to my body, heart and mind where would I be now? Lots of guys got hurt in my line of work for lesser
reasons, and I was in no condition to do the job.
I've pretty much cut everyone out of my life except family and my fiance as well. I just don't give to #s to care about people who seem so full of
drama, self centerist pricks who only come my way when they want my care and support. I'm just sick of it. They can fix their own damn problems. Oddly
enough, haven't heard from any one. In some ways that can be depressing, but when I really think of it. What kind of friend doesn't send you a text,
email or call when last they heard you were sick. #ing people man, they can go rot.
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