it seems that at 39, with 1 dormant diagnosis of sarcoidosis, a 2nd for hypothyroid last august, and a at times very mentally and emotionally demanding job at times, my chi system is not what it was

I have read about mantak chia and his books on retaining the semen and also that his techniques can be dangerous, apparenrlty there are those who believe you should read his book on universal healing through the tao, first

I have read that ejcaulation depletes the jing, I have had a problem with on off binge drinking and gave up and quit smoking a few times and recently have broken again, I have also read that accupuncture, can clear the channels and did help me in the past along with herbs and massage, but doesn't the chi recharge a little through rest, stillness and diet as it is everywhere ?

once the chi is used in sexual activity, can the kidneys, not be restored,



I do reki from time to time to recharge a little and it seems to help

I mediate a few times a week but nothing too intense, I am feeling a bit lost, in the past I seem to wake up the kundalini fire for around 9 years which then subsided, but at times, the energy was overwhelming in it's intensity

I have just began the process of trying to join new groups and make freinds as I find my social life is kinda quiet

in the past I had a very painful soul karmic past life connection and then an affirmative one that recharged me but the stress of work, lonliness in my own life and vocational based 150 page assignment wore me down

sometimes I worrry I have lost that childlike wonder, because I have felt like I have taken such a pounding in the last 15 years

I realise, this is not altogether coherent and seems like a ramble, I have to live my own life and make choices obviously but sometimes am not sure which way to jump anymore

Have you ever tried a ten-day brown rice fast?

My friend,

it looks a though you are on a journey so to speak,

Wise it is to study the method of others but the bottom line is one must recognize their own chi, once the realization is made, then one can begin the process of influencing/rejuvenating their chi by (once again a wise way is to study others methods) trial and error, however it is not critical for outside help but may help at times as the self knows what the self requires and if the moment is correct all will be revealed with or without outside influence.

to find one must seek,

Best wishes with your journey

In a nutshell:
Your body is constantly taking in energy and refining it. Jing, as you mention, is considered one of the most refined energy sources - of which a body will only contain a set amount (you can increase this limit through practice). Excess energy is usually expelled and recycled. The problem with Jing, is that too much expenditure taxes the kidneys - needing time to recover (both Jing levels and structure). In the same thread, too much cultivation of Jing energies and not enough expenditures taxes other systems in the body.

Here is what I would recommend.
1) Find a system of meditation you find comfortable and practice it daily for at least a week (same time and duration each session). This will kickstart your "revival" as it were. It would also be good to start daily exercises of some sort.
2) During the next phase, a cleansing should be undertaken to clear out any internal issues and giving your systems a time to regenerate. Meditation should continue here.
3) The next phase involves a spiritual re-connection piece involving a period of both fasting and abstinence. A 7 day juice fast is perfect for this (be sure to follow the recommended tapering in and tapering out). During the fast additional time should be set aside for meditation practices in addition to your daily meditation routine.
4) The final phase is integration back into your normal lifestyle. Review everything you did over the past sessions and see what in your life could be more balanced (with a definite recommendation to keep up the daily meditation)

Excesses in any form (both consumption and restriction) are never really good. The above process is designed to help you find these excesses and address balance back into your life. This is not "dogma" nor is it the only way of approaching this. You could skip all the spiritual things and just do the inward analysis and get to balance - however, what I have found, is that people who do not step out of their "shells" never are able to make lasting changes.

I am sorry but I do not have any good suggestion for you since I do not have your exact experiances. I might be projecting but this place brings out the worst me I am probably capable of being.

I feel like I am training to have the will to restrain my small minded urges for higher ideals on a level my soul probably never have been able to. It is like weightlifting, a pain in the backside but you get very strong after a while. Is this what you are doing also?

How does kundalini feel like in your body? Where do you feel things and how intense are they? I cannot meditate in the normal sense like it is taught but only relax in a way when I sing or listen to chakra youtube videos. How do you feel when you meditate? Are your mind almost totally empty?

What are you wants and what are your needs? What is your view of you life? Are you very invested in what is going on inside you mind or going along on the ride? Do you see something shining thru from within?

The best way to increase your chi/prana/life-force is by using the breath. I use what is knowns as Ujjayi breathing. It is also called the cobra breath because it is done through the nostrils only. This allows you to breath in positive energy, while exhaling the negative. Notice that snakes only breath through there nostrils. Also known as diaphragmatic breathing or deep breathing.

thanks for your input, was at a low ebb when I posted this, but, Sade can do wonders for your mood, and yes, the breath, is a powerful mobiliser of life force, as I have been reaquainting with