I have on the contrary to your experience always wondered how it would feel to be good in school.
I was your typical lost kid, who just sat there and comprehended what was taught but I never did my homework nor did I do much work at all in school,
but when I did my teachers made an example of me and my papers in front of the other students and I was always proud about that but at the same time,
I stayed humble and I still ended up having extremely bad grades because I didn't take school seriously.
The funny thing is, that if I am fascinated by something I can't stop myself from learning more about it.
If I have to learn math in order to understand the subject than it just falls into place without effort, the only problem is that I never learned how
to calculate in any other way than with plus, minus, division and multiplication which often makes it a lot slower to calculate things. But I'm not
bad at math at all.
I always get the feeling that when I start to talk about things like philosophy, science and so on people get suprised and confused over the fact that
I seem to know so much despite my sloppy appereance.
As soon as I start talking about soul and spirituality though, they all look at me like a total idiot!
Also, whatever I get into I tend to get fairly good at. Music, art, writing, sports, video games and languages.
So I guess for me the experience have been the total opposite. I never understood why my friends found the subjects in school to be so interesting but
they never get why I am so fascinated by archeology, religion, art, spirituality, astronomy and conspiracy theories.
So I feel inferior in a lot of conventional ways but superior in many others. This I never admit to anyone though.
Sidenote; I think it is important to keep in mind that, at far as I'm concerned, most people are almost at equal intelligence or have the same
potential to learn but it all comes down to what we choose to focus on and what we are naturaly fascinated by. There are exceptions on both extremes
of the spectrum of course but I think a lot of us are just not interested in widening our world view and wish to stay in our comfort zone of
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