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Originally posted by dominicus
I used to do music and art for a living about a decade ago, before all the Spiritual Experiences began to happen. Eventually I went through a 3-4 year Dark Night of the Soul. When it ended, I was left in a state of Detachment, Dispassion, and Equanimity, amongst other things like glimpses of an Absolute state where there is no 'I', etc.
What seems to have gone with the Dark Night is all the talent and Fire I once had and was able to make a living out of. I now again have various lucrative opportunities in the Artistic fields, but it feels like the artist in me is dead. The fire and motivation is no longer there. Everything, besides a regular 9 to 5 and as much time possible for "practice" seems to be pointless and illusion based temptation. (The Buddha's 10,000 things)
I reckon I can still do the "art", however there is no "soul or oomph" to it like there used to be...... it's like dead/mechanical/just being done to be done
I'm just wondering if it's at all possible to regain those artistic and fiery aspects of myself that were once there prior to the Dark Night?
Oh yeah, and I'm aware that there will be various biased definitions of "Dark Night" which has become a commercialized slang term. What I;m referring to was a Spiritual Mystical Dark Night which makes regular depression look like a carnival ride or a winning lotto ticket.
Thanks .......edit on 28-1-2013 by dominicus because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by HelenConway
reply to post by Stormdancer777
I think it is because I came out of it with out my 'protection' so to speak, which means I find it really hard to be around people for any length of time if they have really mixed up energies, it makes me feel physically sick.
Also I cry for the earth and her innocent creatures - I know that sounds corny and trite but it is true. It breaks my heart when I see and feel the lack of sensitivity and kindness that is prevalent. The casual cruelty. I have a very strong connection to the earth and her animals .. it makes me despair sometimes , to the point where as my connection or empathy has increased, my ' faith' has diminished. Hard to explain.edit on 30-1-2013 by HelenConway because: (no reason given)
What turned me off before, is that I felt like a mastered a high degree of art and was working with famous people. Then the Mystical experiences began and I took a year off. After that, I could just never do my craft again. I was empty.
I would like that oomph back because I have golden opportunities staring me in my face right now. One's which I passed up before and regretted are now back and open to me
Dark Night of the Soul took some of my talents.
The Dark Night, then, is really a deeply human process, in which the self which thought itself so spiritual, so firmly established upon the supersensual plane, is forced to turn back, to leave the Light, and pick up those qualities which it had left behind. Only thus, by the transmutation of the whole man, not by a careful and departmental cultivation of that which we like to call his “spiritual” side, can Divine Humanity be formed: and the formation of Divine Humanity—the remaking of man “according to the pattern showed him in the mount”—is the mystic’s only certain ladder to the Real… The self in its first purgation has cleansed the mirror of perception; hence, in its illuminated life, has seen Reality. In so doing it has transcended the normal perceptive powers of “natural” man, immersed in the illusions of sense. Now, it has got to be reality: a very different thing.