Matthew, that by far is one of the best replies I have seen in this thread.
I can relate to the whole hyperactive, short-term goal references you make. I often find my interests changing, and finding myself in an intense focus
that produces things much better than anyone else; but like you say, they are hares and they win in the end.
One of my biggest goals in the last six months or so is trying to stick with something for a long period of time.
Another problem I have is fully valuing others. While I am social, have a lot of friends, and have had a bunch of girlfriends, I have stopped
'loving' those people. I find it easy to leave them, as if they are cards in the deck. I can lose those cards easily, knowing that even though there
are only 52 cards in a deck, there are millions of decks elsewhere.
Xploder, I have been misdiagnosed with a few things over the years
Bipolar, ADHD, and Borderline personality disorder
I have been told numerous times that therapists and psychiatrists cannot seem to figure anything out and are "run around in circles" by me. A
constant piece of feedback is that I am inconsistent and they can never figure out what I am all about.
Those disorders listed above were from a younger age. ADHD was in the "let's give them all ritelin" phase of the 90s. BPD was not actually a full
diagnosis, simply a side-thought by a psychiatrist. Bipolar was about 6 years ago, but was later understood to not be valid.
Yes, I am a male and 19 years old.
the only paranormal things are:
> Observed talking to "an old man by the tree" by a babysitter who was not noticed or seen by her. This occurred on two separate occasions, years
apart - I have no recollection of this.
> Observed saying "Hey Grandma" to the ceiling. My grandma was dead, but apparently I told my mom "No she's right there". - No recollection of
> Many nightmares resulting in waking up screaming, crying and scared to go to sleep. These were not just normal nightmares. I don't remember what
they were, but I know that they had something to do with being trapped or chased and that I was the most scared I have ever been in my life.
> I remember wishing for a second dinosaur toy in Kindergarten. I only had one, and did not steal any, but when I got home I opened my bag to find two
> My friend was reported dead by his family, our shared therapist & several others. I have a tattoo in memory of him, but I found out that he is alive
and in prison; I found out about this about a year after his 'death'. More info in this
> More unusual things about me can be seen in my thread when I was studying the possibility of being a Monarch or MKULTRA child (in