posted on Feb, 7 2013 @ 08:01 PM
My grandmother made the best dressing I have ever had. Now I more or less know how she made it, and I follow more or less the same ingredients and
make a decent substitute, and many who have tried it say it's the best dressing they have ever had.....but I know it's not hers. She left no recipe,
it was a pinch of this and that a handful of something etc....but my hands are not hers. It's different, and what is different or missing I can not
say...and wonder if I ever will figure it out. I feel this way also about freemasonry today.
Every degree has been a great experience, I was quite emotional on the inside when I was raised, though I am not so sure how well I hid it. The more I
read and studied the ritual work to take part as an officer later the more I noticed little things, the more I read about sometime far off topics
especially in biblical study the more parts came to have a deeper meaning...... with all that said. I know that the ritual we do is not the one done
centuries ago exactly, and that something is missing. A understanding. We have tried our best to preserve the rituals, but there is also a story in
masonry. A memory to discuss real events in a way not obvious. A way to never forget, but to keep it shrouded so that those who would mean it ill
would not understand. Sometimes i think I lamost have it, but like those 3d images you have to unfocus for just when I think I understand it fades.
The more i read on the history the more versions I hear from masonic experts the more i doubt we will ever fully know the original meaning as to this
part of ritual. With that said, I think we have the important part, we are impressed with the moral virtues important for living well, we are
impressed with the shortness of time we have to do so, and we are brought into a circle of other good men who are more and more becoming a small
select few among a more corrupt and mean world. The rest of the truth will be made clear when we return to our creator.
As to energy....spirituality etc.... I would say by taking up the work laid out before me, I have since found a new more sincere energy as I practice
my faith. I mean that literally, not just figuratively for get up and go. It is in my faith I find that energy, and brush with the transcendent more
then in any ritual. It is with my God I experience my spirituality. Masonry didn't create that, it just made that path more clear, and something fuzzy
in my mind, become more discernable. It made me a better person, and try to live more righteously, and in that it made me a better member in my faith,
but my God was with me always, and I was with God always though I did not always see it. Masonry has provided a lense to see things more clearly but
it did not create the things to be seen or the mind who sees them. But I really wish I did know the full story in there as well......I have guesses
and likelihoods but there seems to be no concensus among masons on that part.
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